Awakening to a life that is no more

I awaken
My body is still shaking
I am crying
I can't go on lying
Did he touch me
My reply would be no
But deep down inside
The pain hurts me so
Unable to tell
It will happen again
Keeping it locked inside
I feel the pain
Knock, knock upon the door
In walks the pain
Just close my eyes and ignore
Focus on the rain
I open my eyes to see the pain
Staring me in the eyes
This is wrong but he doesn't care
He won't realize
He gets up satisfied
And walks out
It will happen again
Without a doubt
Unable to tell
It will hurt even more
This secret I must keep
Forevermore