Full Emptiness

The heart was once running over
With delightful thoughts and feelings
But now over the mind a dark cloud hovers
As I helplessly gaze at the ceiling

Trying to communicate with the heavens
But no voice will talk back to me
Making me feel unworthy of living
Like existence is mere insanity

Fruitlessly I rattle the bars
Of the emptiness that has held me in
Making wishes on falling stars
Playing with no promise of a win

The game of life has simply gone sour
That reality just caught up with me
The sadness that surfaces with every hour
Is gradually snatching away my sanity

As I do everything within my might
To resist the call of hopelessness
In patience perservere through the dark night
And embrace the light of dawn's brightness

But the phony smile is wearing away
The hidden mood is somehow surfacing
It is hard to keep it in night and day
When the same feelings keep persisting

Wish there was a shoulder to lean on and cry
A reassuring voice to say it is well
It is hopeless so why even try
Everyone has got an ugly story to tell

What then is the use to even say
Words none can comprehend the meanings therein
I guess it is useless anyway
Futile to even begin