Broken

i feel so broken
i haven't slept in days
my minds in another place
lost spaced out and confused
im troubled haunted im plagued
by this feeling im going no where
that im stuck stuck in a hole
that i have dug ive shoveled my heart
into a dark hole a bottomless pit
of sorrow with no future of a better
tomorrow im lost or am i found i cant
tell all i know is im living in a nightmare
a prison a self made hell i cant fix myself
even though ive tried ive drowned all hope
of happiness with these tears that ive cried
an ocean of regret self loathing and bitterness
is all that i get from this im sick of it sick of shit
always going wrong it seems that if there is a god
he hasn't cared to help if he even cares at all
and i know it seems im complaining but what else
am i to do no one ever listens so i write my pain out
and post it on DU