what do we have left after this sick game? we know so well, it's all we play drowning the misery with each breath slicing the pain away one more swig, bliss the numbness begins again what will be left of us once the bottles are all gone and empty reminder of what we are broken, damaged, done fading within every word, slurring thoughts together life flies by, washed down the drain it's not like we'll remember anyways so take my hand my dear, we're dying as it is it's time to take the pain away down with the bottle we live
Am I trying to hard? or just not hard enough? You don't even seem to notice Friends? or more? Flirtationship that's going nowhere Think I'm reading this wrong Fuck it, I can't tell You're completely oblivious.
The one best friend I've ever had Now it's time to let go No longer the comfort of her touch No softness at my feet. She was the one, Who years ago Brought me out of my shell. One part bitch, The rest a baby We bonded instantly.
I'll never forget Your deep green eyes Or the way youd cry at me Just know this please, You'll always be in my heart Baby girl, I love you
So I'm stuck here again. Caught in the middle of an emotional trainwreck. I can't even tell what my mind is saying anymore. Torn between a past I loved, and a future of uncertainty. Not wanting to let go of what was, hating what is, and terrified of what will be. It seems like everyone that mattered, doesn't care if I'm alive or if I've dropped dead. Lovely. Sometimes I wonder if this life of mine is worth all of the pain and heartache. When I can't even figure out if the past is coming back to haunt me, or if the interest is true. I'm probably just imagining it. Just as I did back then. That...