across enemy lines

As tears of dishonor stream down my lonely face
I know no lonelier place,
No greater defeat,
Than these walls that imprison me...

Standing across enemy lines to my surprise,
What used to be the good parts of me are now key to my demise.
It was all a ruse from the people i knew
To exploit my secrets and minipulate my truths.
Still too naive to believe,
My son would be the catalyst for the revenge she seeked.
So it seems, my absence has declared war against me
I make no excuses for my actions and i offer no plea.
just understand its only i who's stood by my side
For GOD was too busy so it was all on me to just get it.
I tried i swear i tried but still somehow i missed it
nobody gets it they never seem to listen,
I've been looking for a way out while searching for forgiveness.
I even tried to involve them in my mission
But they all felt indifferent,
Im expected to accept it instead i keep them at a distance.
Therefore i apologize for nothing i only seek redemption!
My son the only exception!
If this is what he requires than i offer it with blessings.
No point in dwelling in unrequited love or the reason it exists,
I offered my best but noone was willing to accept.
As the memories fade and disdain replaces surprise,
I STAND ACROSS ENEMY LINES...