Loving hoplessness

Why do I fret?
This roller coaster between black souls.
I try and I try to mend this.
My never ending love unfurling,
only to be left high and dry
No second thought commencing,
I'm left here tired and defending
The love I want so bad.
I'm determined to make this puzzle piece fit
Derailing myself for this love
These broken bones,
this cloak over my eyes.
I'm forced to fight
for something that should be mine.
Why is this so difficult?
To love you forever?
To hold you in my arms always?
I'll give my life for you.
I'll sacrifice myself entirely,
You're all I want.
I don't know what I must do.
The rise of every sun,
presents a new challenge.
It burns like passion in my veins.
Yet, you don't comply.
Why do I try and try,
and only end up empty-handed?
The words I write for you,
the never ending flow of love.
Is it not enough?
Will I faulter to hopelessness?
Will you forever pull these strings?
So many questions I cannot answer.
This is mental torture.
I fight through the greatest duress
all for your love.
For your smile,
For your touch,
For you.
My mind tells me to quit,
but my heart won't let me.
I'm not perfect,
but I don't deserve this.
Please, love me like I deserve.
Show me that this is real.
This feeling unrelenting.