Diary of the Attention Whore

Smile at me! Look at me! Please, I’m begging you. Look me in the eye and dare yourself to try and understand. LOOK AT ME! See me! See my past, behold my present, and help me build my future. Please don’t look away, don’t run out on me, don’t let me crumble away. . . I hate my face, my clothes, my body, my hair. I hate my laugh, my voice, my thoughts, my mind. I hate my words, my actions, my ways. I hate myself. So love me. Love me in my own place, when I can’t love myself. Love every little thing I do, and every sound I make. I can’t love myself and my selfish ways. How can I make you look. Make you see that I’m broken and bent. I need you to see me and fix me. I need you not only because I’m desperate and alone, but I need you because I don’t know what to do anymore. I need you, because I don’t know how to need myself.