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My Mom

My mom I never really got to know her

I have vague memories of her kindness but strangeness

She heard voices and would become manic

I'm ashamed to say even as a child though I loved her

I was also embarrassed by her eratic behavior

I loved her she had such a kind soul

Would take me to mass and though I would sguiggle and squirm

She would kindly admonish me hush little one and listen to the priest

These are my fond memories of her

Mostly I was an angry little girl

Left alone most of the time running the streets at three years old

She was committed to the hospitol and some how I had been left alone

I had been left in the house no electricity, no food for three days

I remember well the night the cops came in guns drawn

My back to the wall

From there it was off to foster care

I remember pleading with the kind social worker

To take me home

That I would be a good girl

Terrified of a foreign home

From there I went to live with my dad

All was well he was a crop duster

He did his best to provide me a stable home

Though a rage I couldn't express burned bright inside my tiny heart

I alienated people pushed them away

The love I once had for my mom had turned to hate

After I had grown I visited her a couple times in the mental ward

I could no longer make a connection with her she was too far gone

She died when I was eighteen

I didn't miss her

Then when the paranoia and mania

Started to manifest in me

My heart started to grow soft for my mom

I know she is in heaven now

Sane and finally safe

I pray some how she hears me and will forgive me my hate.

Written by crimsin

(Unveiling)

Published 20th Apr 2011

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a quick edit for ya...

Anonymous

20th Apr 2011 8:03am

Away is one word:

Yours:
I alienated people pushed them a way

Corrected:
I alienated people pushed them away

Still 5/5 stars for me! Great write! You're a good storyteller. I felt as if this had happened to me! It was so engaging! Have you ever thought about maybe writing short stories? If that really happened to you, wow what a thing to go through, abandonment....:(

crimsin (Unveiling)

20th Apr 2011 8:09am

Thank you for the heads up on the edit and yes this is a true story..I miss my mom now and understand her better..thank you for the encouragement..peace Brenda