Stop

Can I stop?

I don’t know whats wrong today.

Can I stop?

What is this shadow I see?

Can I stop?

I feel it staring at me.

Can I stop?

Don’t you see the eyes?

Don’t you hear his evil lies?

Can I stop?

I don’t remember holding the gun,

But he told me a game both gruesome and fun.

Can I stop?

The teeth hissed out a cruel truth.

My friend told me to end this youth.

Can I stop?

Can’t you feel his claws on your skin?

He’s dug them so far in me, they’re closer than kin.

Can I stop?

His fog-like existence draping my hand like a glove.

His abusive orders to end this life that I love.

I can’t stop!

You didn’t see the demons inside of me!

You didn’t hear the madness get set free!

I CAN”T STOP!

I tried to stop bullets goals!

I CAN’T STOP!

I tried before he broke my soul!

I CAN’T STOP!

I then remembered what made me crack!

I CAN’T STOP!

I then remembered hope.

Then he pulled the trigger back.

…

I didn’t fade away.

I bolted out with no chance to stay.

Broken, shadowed, and lost,

I wanted a truth and forgot the cost.

I wanted thoughts I could feel.

They were devils made real.

It makes me wish I’d stop.