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In Jail Again
In jail again Son?
The usual I presume
You must be relieved
No responsibilities or decisions
In exchange for being treated like shit
No Surprise
Embarrassed this time?
Scared or remorseful
Or the same righteous indignation
Couldn’t be your fault
Just holding someone else’s stash
Which One
Admit to drug-addict thinking?
Guilt for pain caused
20 years wasted on meth
Never admit to bad decisions
Couldn’t help it, parents to blame
Still Waiting
You still believe ADD is really
"Adult discipline deficit"
I was a bad mother
Should have spanked you more
My fault your Dad ran away
Not True
You’re a cop at my car window
Writing citations, ordering me to court
To answer for your screw ups
I’ve parked the car and got out
Guilt trip is finally over
Grow Up
Your daughter watching you fail
Speaks her anger and hurt
She has a fist full of citations
To throw at you as she turns away
Just as you did to your Dad
History Repeats
Your Grandma’s powerful love
Not judging always accepting
She could die while you’re locked up
The rest of the family has tried
But now their backs are turned
Criminal Acts
I don't know your friends
Do they miss you?
As the pipe is passed around
Remembering the good times
Or are they already forgetting
Which One
Why don’t you try harder?
To act like an adult and a father
Show your daughter some compassion
Be considerate, respectful and plan ahead
Stop doing drugs
Change It
Sadness overwhelms me
My handsome, smart and kind boy
So exhausted from the tough love needed
To force you to grow up
It’s okay that you’re in jail again
Love You
Published 12th Sep 2014
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12th Sep 2014 2:29am
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12th Sep 2014 2:32am
There seems to be a lot of built up emotions let out here. Very accurate depiction of how much an addict, can ruin other peoples lives and not just their own.
13th Sep 2014 3:33am
This is a raw and real piece on how a family becomes corrupted in a cyclical demon
15th Sep 2014 2:51pm
I understand. I'm lucky...well maybe not, depends on how you look at it I guess...I have no family left. Everyone is dead and I am the last. I cannot disappoint anyone, only me. And I'm not disappointed.
18th Sep 2014 00:22am
I say "wow" to your comment...very enigmatic (like a poem) and powerful. I can understand your relief about no one left to disappoint. I'm not there yet but at 57 shouldn't I stop worrying about others? Thanks for sharing
23rd Sep 2014 11:03pm
Is her back turned on him as well?
And just her thoughts are trying to get him out of his constant high?
Cold, disconnected thoughts.
Is this tale stemming from reality?
And just her thoughts are trying to get him out of his constant high?
Cold, disconnected thoughts.
Is this tale stemming from reality?
24th Sep 2014 9:02pm
Thanks for your comments. Yes it a true story. My 34 year son who has done drugs for 20 years. I raise his 11 year old daughter and so have even more reason to be angry and disappointed with him. My granddaughter is very cynical and dismissive of him even tho' she loves him too. Damage everywhere you look
24th Sep 2014 10:43pm
Do you feel like it could be your fault that he's like that?
Do you regret not doing things another way or...?
Do you regret not doing things another way or...?
26th Sep 2014 1:39am
Why Yes I do. Just like any other co-dependent person that loves an addict, especially if it's their child. He overwhelmed me early on with his ADHD and oppositional defiance. I was a single mom that avoided confrontation and mostly wanted to escape. I did all of the normal things that parents do - no neglect happened - except my emotional weakness. He still won't own any part in the things he's done. Blames me for all if it. Even now that he's 34 and with a child of his own.
