Confused

I used to want
What you are giving
But now I think it's too late
I should have stopped
When this beginning
Was clearly going to take place
We can't have what we used to
I remember what it was
But I can't believe that anymore
Maybe this could be something new
If I could give you my trust
But I'm really not too sure
You think you know so much about me, but you don't
There's a lot we haven't disclosed
It's only really been a while
One month and things changed so suddenly
Words of gratitude and declarations of love
Appreciative for how I make you smile
I can't understand what's happening here
If I'm to blame for these heightened emotions
Then I shouldn't have messed with you this way
It's difficult to see things clear
I love how you're trying to be open
But I know beautiful words are your forte
These expressions are nothing out of the ordinary
They just happen more frequently now
I knew that till you did what you did
Attempted to convey that you were serious
With explanations of why and how
This time, you made me take it all in

That was my moment of realization
That things had gone too far
If this is truly how you're feeling
I'm not sure if I'll ever be able to feel that connected
I'll probably always keep you at a distance
Though this would still have some meaning
But what if that isn't enough for you?
What if you want more than I can give?
Should I feel guilt for not being on the same page?
Or should I accept that it's not my fault
Remember how your apology was only due to circumstance
And that you never really initiated at any stage
I know I have no control over the degree in which someone feels
I just don't want anyone to feel misled at my expense
Or to ever make them feel used
At first this was fun and games to see the deal
Unsurprisingly it turned into a mess and so
Right now I'm just a little confused