daddy goodbye but not forever

daddy i hated you
i said
i wouldnt ever forgivw you
but now i have
you dont talk to me
and now your dying
daddy
why couldnt you put the bottle down
just once
why was liquor

and old women
so important
more important than me
your kids
why cant we just
live like we use too
you beat me
hit me with the belt
24 times
left for six years
then act like
everything is okay
sitting in
three hour lectures
just so we knew the rules