June 22nd 2014

I slept till 14 and made eggs while drinking orange juice, naked. To my surprise, one of my roommate's parents were over. We were all mortified. My roommate came in after all of us screamed. He was very angry at me. Apparently he told me to get out of the house before noon. He didn't know I wasn't awake. Funny how those things work out so perfectly. If you're wondering why I was making eggs naked, I too am wondering the same thing.

I personally like to think Walt Disney is a Nazi that is in favor of homosexual couples. I think Disney did something that was pro LGBT, which probably influences that. The Nazi thing is too complicated to write. I guess if you're pro LGBT the whole Nazi thing could be overlooked, by some. I know that there were reports of gay Nazis, which is cute (in my opinion). Am I pro Nazi? No. I don't hate them, but I'm not very fond of them either. They were pretty smart and clever, but that's also what made them very dangerous. Very systematically they dehumanized an entire ethnic group, which is purely awful but smart. I think it could be argued that Jewish people are a race. They went through more abuse then Africans (arguably), which should probably make them a race. At least they think they were. I hear a lot about how the Egyptians enslaved Jews and made them work on the pyramids. I'm not going to doubt that the Jews were enslaved, too much documentation on that, but working on the pyramids as slaves is wrong. There are records that the workers were given sick days and paid wages, not much but still!. That doesn't sound like slave labor to me. But I could be wrong, or the documentations on recorded some of the laborers and not the slaves. But you know, a lot of history is messed up. I studied Latin, which also means I studied the Ancient Romans. If you just look up the myth of how Rome was founded and the seven kings of Rome, you'll know shit is fucked up. Apparently, Aeneas found the precursor to the precursor of Rome which was founded by two warring brothers raised by either a she wolf or a whore. I don't understand Roman History or mythology. All I know is that they were extremely superstitious and not as bad as one would think. Sure they had slavery, but it was at least ten times more humane as American Slavery. That's not saying a lot, but hey, if you're of European decent (that's not German, Russian or eastern European), one of your ancestors was probably enslaved by the Romans. And look, you're still here. It wasn't genocide, nor was it saintly. I don't know what my point is anymore. Maybe that's the point. Maybe I'm a madman, maybe a racist, maybe both, or none, or something else. You decide.

So I'm going on a date Monday. So nervous. It's ones from the first entry I made. So yeah. Movie, dinner then an empty wallet. I hate my job's pay. Love the work, hate the pay. If it payed just a little more, I wouldn't even think about looking for another job. Now I'm doing odd jobs on the side, which is okay I guess. Can't get your cake and eat it too, I guess. You can't always be on top. It doesn't matter if you had a 4.5 GPA, were in three clubs, a sport, and national honor's society. What matters is that you're not a liability. They say they don't discriminate people with mental health issues. That's a fucking lie. It's like saying redlining doesn't exist anymore. Look at fucking Chicago. It's still the most segregated city in America. Or that religion doesn't play a role into employment. It does in the south. I was asked what religion I was when I applied for my first job back in Georgia. The fuck!? What does it matter if I'm an atheist if I'm bagging!? It's not like I'm exorcising daemons from the customer.