Shame

 I wished to feel you here,
stroking away the bitter
after
taste.
I stretched your ghostly frame
across every inch of my big bed. I laid
above it holding my
strange 
lonely
mind.
You kiss me from a translucent
stance and you wrap yourself within my thighs.
Beneath midnight, fighting
starlight to catch a break.
We are both moaning
at least
with every breath
we take.
It's lonely inside,
and yet I'm raping the memories
and kissing wounds
and reviving violence
and reliving the damn experience.
I can only do that when I
remove you from my skin.
A bitter
after
taste
drowning out
the 
lonely
mind
within
Here I'm aching, sweetheart
from
an unfortunate climax
with only a ghost and only a memory
of a world I won't take back.
I miss you daily, sweetheart
I won't
erase a memory
with only a ghost living inside me
it was never meant to be.