The Difference

Lay in bed to rest
But my mind puts me to the test.
I think of all the pain
And make myself sad
Why must I think of all the bad?

I close my eyes
Try to push it away
Try to silence my fear
But it just pulls a trigger.

I think of my past
And I think of the people
Who used to mean the world..
The world to me.
And it opens a wound.
No matter how much time has passed
This wound just seems to last

I wish I could help people
I wish I could make things better
I want to make a difference.
But it just seems that I don't.

That hurts more than anything
That hurts more than my own pain

I just wish I could be a light
A light in this abyss