hate :)

i hate it when i put so much effort
and it gets erased from this earth
i hate it when i care
but its me who ends up burnt
i hate the fact that i dont believe myself
when i say "i love you"
cause im not really sure what it means
i hate the way im afraid to cry
i hate the way i feel like there is acid
boilling in my insides
i hate the way i cant give proper hugs
cause i rarely get them
i hate the way it is so easy for people leave
i hate the fact you cant spell believe without lie
i hate the way i hate a lot of things
but i dont mind
because all ive done since i was five
was to try and smile and be alive