Mr.Crazy

there is this guy i know  
love him with all my heart  
he is very sweet  
my brother is obsessed with him  
he is my "prince charmimg"  
i love to talk to him  
i just relized i have only called him at 3 in the morning  
oh well there is a time diffrence  
even tho he lives in canada i feel very close to him  
he has kept me up early im the moring  
even when i had church in the morning  
(i did get in trouble about sleeping in church)  
he is just crazy  
i bet right now as he is reading this he is laughing  
but sometimes i think what if  
what if he doesnt like me  
what if he finds somebody  
what if i fall for somebody else and hurt him  
what if he hurts me  
what if this is real and we start a life  
what if i leave him  
what if he leaves me  
 
i hate what ifs but they are here and i cant ignor them like i ignor the world  
i dont really know why i am writing about him  
i dont really know if this makes sence  
i dont really know anything at this point