lost

why do i have to choice
i have lost everyone now
and i can't let this bring me down  
i need to love someone who can let me  
bring someone else in my life  
but not allow them to bring me down
there is too much for me to say
i can't say that there is nothing there for me  
cause i know out there that there will be someone out there for me  
all i wish is that i have someone now.
i am heartbroken  
and i am tearing my heart out now  
cause i feel like i have lost everything in my life
everything is destroyed cause i feel like i have lost my life and the two most important people in my life.
why am i stupid why do i do tings like this  
all i wish is that i wasn't even alive.
i miss you with all my heart but i can't afford to see your face
we are like romeo and juliet as every one pushes us away but there is nothing else i can do about it cause i love him...
 
why they died in the accident was it because of me or was it because they loved me but i couldn't think who was telling the truth or not...if i made up my mind i might of had the choice of figuring out who i loved before i lost everything in my life, they were important to me and i feel the guilt in me and all i have to do is now grab a knife and allow the blood come pouring out of me  
while the blood coming out of me i n a box is where imust place my heart and my soulas i don't feel like i have the strengh to hold my head above the water anymore. i have lost everything and now there is nothing the world is dull and very plain. and now all i have to wait for the revenge that someone wants to kill me and i will allow them as there is nothing else for me to live for.