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I Miss My Dad
My dad had a straight up
way of saying things
that would always make me flinch
I always wanted to dolly up
my words make um where dresses
he had a simplistic view of the world
seeing things head on
no blind spots blocking his view
he would talk to me
bout not wearing too much makeup
he said I didn't need it
I rebelled masking my face
under a macabre veil
womanizer he was
made me not trust men
to stick around
though he did for me
my real mom a schizophrenic
abandoned me
my step-ma wanted him
to give me up for adoption
never did you see a man fight for a baby
as he did with me
so many wars raged in our household over me
an angel in his sight a devil to her
I hated my step-ma
was glad when he chased
her down the street screaming
for checking up on him at work
while he was out with his mistress
I loved this lady she was kind to me
gave me hot coco and had a big beautiful house
lot's of fun I had playing there
I miss my dad he comes to me in dreams often
not my deceased mom who I love
though never had an understanding of
my dad loved cars, ladies and me
I wish I could hear what he was saying
when he was speaking wisdom to me
with his easy laid back country way
(Author's note my dad died when I was eighteen on his way to work)
way of saying things
that would always make me flinch
I always wanted to dolly up
my words make um where dresses
he had a simplistic view of the world
seeing things head on
no blind spots blocking his view
he would talk to me
bout not wearing too much makeup
he said I didn't need it
I rebelled masking my face
under a macabre veil
womanizer he was
made me not trust men
to stick around
though he did for me
my real mom a schizophrenic
abandoned me
my step-ma wanted him
to give me up for adoption
never did you see a man fight for a baby
as he did with me
so many wars raged in our household over me
an angel in his sight a devil to her
I hated my step-ma
was glad when he chased
her down the street screaming
for checking up on him at work
while he was out with his mistress
I loved this lady she was kind to me
gave me hot coco and had a big beautiful house
lot's of fun I had playing there
I miss my dad he comes to me in dreams often
not my deceased mom who I love
though never had an understanding of
my dad loved cars, ladies and me
I wish I could hear what he was saying
when he was speaking wisdom to me
with his easy laid back country way
(Author's note my dad died when I was eighteen on his way to work)
Written by
crimsin
(Unveiling)
Published 14th Mar 2014
| Edited 15th Mar 2014
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Re: I Miss My Dad
14th Mar 2014 9:50pm
I miss my dad to - he thought I was worth fighting for to - made me reminisce crimsin
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14th Mar 2014 10:12pm
thank you Whale it's great to have someone in our corner.. with love and respect Crim :)
Re: I Miss My Dad
14th Mar 2014 9:53pm
this leaves me near speachless.. I don't know how to appropriately express how this touched me. makes me miss my father even tho I see and speak with him regularly... with much respect xoxo Domore.
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re: Re: I Miss My Dad
14th Mar 2014 10:13pm
thank you for the love beautiful lady hug your dad tight :) with love and respect Crim
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14th Mar 2014 10:19pm
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14th Mar 2014 10:29pm
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14th Mar 2014 10:29pm
Sounds like your dad loved you more than anything or anybody,that's a beautiful thing to have forever (his love)Every sunday morning i put my pops ashes on top of the speaker ,then i put his favorite music on ,he loved Big Band music and we dance.I truly believe we will see each other again...you too :)
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re: Re: I Miss My Dad
14th Mar 2014 10:38pm
thank you Hash for getting this poem let's crank the music for all of our dads we miss :) with love and respect Crim
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14th Mar 2014 11:35pm
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Anonymous
14th Mar 2014 11:54pm
Crim.....I feel ya. You're still worth fighting for. Sending luv,hugs and smiles your way, xo :)
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15th Mar 2014 2:57am
Sounds like fond and intimate memories here Crim.
It's a good thing filled with sustenance to get
you through daily although the absence can be turmoil on you. But I guess the fond memories help.
My dad and going through some irreconcilable memories at the moment although overtime maybe the healing can take place.
I was actually sketching-out a poem about this, this evening tonight so I find your write timely and interesting. Maybe it's an admonition to me to handle what's the schism to us.
Maybe you're my angel. :-)
Pan
It's a good thing filled with sustenance to get
you through daily although the absence can be turmoil on you. But I guess the fond memories help.
My dad and going through some irreconcilable memories at the moment although overtime maybe the healing can take place.
I was actually sketching-out a poem about this, this evening tonight so I find your write timely and interesting. Maybe it's an admonition to me to handle what's the schism to us.
Maybe you're my angel. :-)
Pan
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re: Re: I Miss My Dad
15th Mar 2014 6:58am
thank you Pan I can't wait to read you poem about your dad.. an angel hmm so heartwarming of you to say :) with love and respect Crim
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15th Mar 2014 10:08am
I can not say I feel the same for my father was never there but in the aspect of how a father should be your words are beautiful and heart warming.
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re: Re: I Miss My Dad
15th Mar 2014 2:57pm
I'm sorry about you dad though I understand not having my mom around.. thank you for your kind sentiments on this write.. much love Crim :)
Re: I Miss My Dad
15th Mar 2014 11:55am
How sweetly touching this is! Sad bout your mom though
I'm sorry the only negative n lasting effect
left you with a strong distrust of men, it seems whatever your dad felt for YOU proved him capable of ONE faithful true love, but it was for YOU, n truly that's all that should matter. Loved your dedication to his memory
I admire him because I'll be damned if he n I
didn't seem like TWINS in how we infinitely
LOVE our little girls! :)
I'm sorry the only negative n lasting effect
left you with a strong distrust of men, it seems whatever your dad felt for YOU proved him capable of ONE faithful true love, but it was for YOU, n truly that's all that should matter. Loved your dedication to his memory
I admire him because I'll be damned if he n I
didn't seem like TWINS in how we infinitely
LOVE our little girls! :)
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re: Re: I Miss My Dad
15th Mar 2014 2:59pm
thank you Poe yes my dad's love was faithful concerning me as it is with your little one.. I miss him greatly :) with love and respect Crim
Re: I Miss My Dad
15th Mar 2014 4:33pm
This is a beautifully written slice of your life, with that mix of hardship pain and love blending in the yearnings. Very relatable, Crim. seems we have some commonalties. Much love and peace to you!
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re: Re: I Miss My Dad
15th Mar 2014 4:41pm
thank you beautiful Angel for getting this write and relating it to your own life :) with love and respect Crim
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Re: I Miss My Dad
16th Mar 2014 2:54am
Wow this is absolutely a beautiful piece. Thank you for sharing this deep hearted episode from the pages of ur life
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16th Mar 2014 5:57am
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17th Mar 2014 7:14pm
Great piece Crim, I miss my Dad everyday!!
Love the read, I'm touched!
Sir Lancelott
Love the read, I'm touched!
Sir Lancelott
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17th Mar 2014 7:40pm