What I Been Through

As I walk this walk
I walk this walk life
The ups and downs
The turns arounds
This feeling in my chest it
just brings me down
All my life I just hold it
all in
I hold it all in
But taking my life isn't
that a sin
My life just feels like
whirlwind
It swoops me up
Whirls me around
But slams me to the fucking ground
The cuts and scrapes
My bruises look like fresh picked
grapes
I try to stand up but I think its
too late
Its too late too erase the past
Its too late for me to get off my ass
I said its too late for me to get
off my ass
What can do about the things that
happened in the past
So I just hold it all in
I hold it all in to keep from
crying
Whats the point of crying when I
feel like dying
I just wanna take the knife and just
end it all
But what would my mom think when she
her only son fall
See him in his own pool of blood
Tears steaming down her face
looks like its about to flood
But I hold it all in
You see me smile
But behind that smile is anger
Pain..
Sadness..
Years of madness
I hate it when people lie
I hate when they lie to face
Sometimes I wish they would just
fucking die
They make up these lies and try to
hide
They try to hide from the truth
Thinking they slicker than slick
But their words don't mean shit
They don't mean shit to me
I just wanna live happily
So when I count to three
You will know how I feel when I
get three
Because you don't know what I been
through
So when I look at you and smile
Don't be surprised when I say Fuck You