new years

i swim in the deep vastness of the ocean
looking for the cure to my pain
but all i seem to seek out around me
is the lack of lively, pulsing veins.

hurting myself
the easiest way to cope
helping myself
do i deserve it, even though i hope?


time heals wounds
but time also ages scars
and as your skin sags and fades
past memories are painfully reborn.