Falling

One final step
A long, deep breath

You can't imagine the serenity you feel
When you finally decide to end it all

Memories can't satisfy or sustain anymore
The nostalgia that gave me hope is dead

Those long ago days when life was blissful
That American Pie bullshit I lived

It just set me up for the worst depression
The past was a drug and it's high is impossible

I tried placing happiness in other things
My future could be anything, anything but the past

If only, if I didn't take being a kid for granted
Getting in a hurry to grow up ignoring it all

Those days rushed by so fast
Why did they have to go and leave me behind

I cry out get them back and relive
The friends, family, experiences

All of it is gone forever fading into nothing
Not even my deepest desire can bring it back

Now look at me lost and alone
Wishing to go back in time and fix myself

Grab myself by the collar and convince me
Not to waste the best years of my life

I scratch and pull myself into the next day
My scars are bleeding out what's left of me

It's painful knowing where I stand
One step ahead of my best years

And one step from finishing an ugly race
So now I'm falling with smile and at peace