Embracing the Darkness

I’ll shut my eyes and hold in my breath
wait patiently for approaching death
slip beneath the surface and into the calm
as I whisper silently a remembered psalm
and let the darkness that lives in me
take me to where it wants me to be
so much turmoil I’ve so long endured
so many shed tears that my eyes have blurred
down my cheeks they run in streams
as slowly this nightmare kills my dreams
what’s the point? what’s the use?
there is no peace; there is no truce
so I’ll let it all go at long last
let go of my future, give into my past
I can’t face it down; I can’t run away
I can find no color, my world stays gray
so I’m giving up, I’ll fight no more
just let softly shut a once opened door
embrace the pain that sears my heart
and rips my very soul apart
turn away from happiness and light
for I’ve lost my will; I’ve lost my fight