I'm so pathetic

A tempting phone call today
There's some good shit around.
I try to be tough
I think I'm going to let myself down.

It's hard
I can't stand the pain
the sickness that takes over your body
drives me completely insane.

Just a little bit, I say
it won't get me hooked again
but apparently I still am
I guess it's my best friend.

So, I already found the money for it....
it's set for the morning
so at 9:00 a.m. tomorrow
I'll be in my glory.

I'm trying to be strong
but I'm nothing but a joke....
I can't believe all the faith I had
and now I'm completely stoked.

Tomorrow I'll snort that line
then cry my eyes out
Tell myself how strong I was
that I'm a loser...with out a doubt.

I'd ask you to have faith in me
that you can help me from this pain
but you won't...you just can't
How can you deny your best friend?