BEING ME

In this cycle we called life,
There were times that I lied,
So many situations that I hid,
And a lot of feelings that I denied.

Even though it really hurts,
Well, I would say, ‘ohh, it’s nothin’,
And even though it’s not fine at all,
 I would still say, “It’s alright”.

Even though I’m really afraid,
And I know that I’m totally scared,
I would still stand straight,
Move on and forget ‘bout it.

Even though I’m in severe pain,
And my heart’s totally suffering,
You would still see me laughing and smiling,
Even though inside it’s really aching.

There were moments that I cried,
And when I’m alone I’m teary eyed,
But I won’t allow anyone to see me,
In crying times when I’m not okay.

People thought they knew me,
And sometimes they even envy me,
They thought for me life is so easy,
Coz I am a happy-go-lucky.

But they just don’t know what I feel,
That what they’re seeing is not for real,
I also have skeletons in my closet,
Things I did with so much regret.

Maybe for others, yes I’m pretending,
That it’s only myself I am fooling,
But I’m just doing all these things,
Coz I don’t want my emotions control my total being.