Agony of Despair

Sitting on a wooden chair
inhaling the smoke from the cigarette
Trapped in the agony of despair
wishing for the cold hands of death

Hope is exhausted
Pride is busted
Shame,defeat and misery
gnaw at the last calorie

Heaven is numb
it can't feel a thing
No divine interventions
in this tragic-comedy

Anger rises and fall
Hope's light rebound
Against a hopeless mind
wherein nothing stands

The world is a maze
Why are we even here?
In this laboratory cage
Bound in anger and fear

Evil is quick to happen
Good things take ages to come
Our patience we must daily sharpen
from sunset till dawn

Then must desire retire
likewise ambitions wait
While we are being tested by fire
every chance can be a bait

Good deeds means nothing at all
evil brings a better reward
Good and evil share the same fate afterall
At the end waits the judging lord

For the poor it's a double jeopardy
The rich has seen heaven here
The mind of a poor man is bitter constantly
In the agony of despair

With what words can one be consoled?
Haven't we heard them before?
They say the affairs of man is controlled
by he who made them all

In this random state of things
i inquire for equality
It simply does not exist
For some affluence,others poverty

Please show me the scale of judgment
before i say too much
In any condition we must be thankful and patient
I learnt that in church

Today i question my sunday school
and all i learned in cathchesm
To be positive is cool
but what about the feelings

That creeps in
When things never goes as planned
It's hard to pull one's self together
even harder to undestand

Despair rules like a tyrrant
Its agony misty and dark
I heard David slaughtered a giant
cause the Most High got his back