Still "Gone"

I can definitely relate...great write!

Meggy I was wondering where you were at I was worried about you.. I understand the daily need and people giving it to you and not being able to say no.. i'm glad you've come back.. much love Brenda

Thanks for your concern :) I was just a little off the deep end for a minute.

" People giving it out to me "

Wish I could say the same thing about sex

To say it's tough to quit would be a massive understatement. The addictiveness of this particular drug you're writing about is the stuff of legend, going back a loooong time. (Longer than people think. MUCH longer.) It's still #1 on the list of hardest addictions to kick, & the reason I'm so afraid of it, still, to this day. No one said it would be easy...so stop beating yourself up!

It might just have to come down to moving to a different location, where you don't know anybody, & the temptations won't be so readily available. Not easy, no, but not impossible, either. It will take mucho effort & a massive shake up of your life. Scary stuff.

These people are not your friends, but that statement must seem like a broken friggin' record to you by now.

Positive, healthful vibes to you, Meggs, for whatever that's worth. You're in my thoughts.

ButcherScraps took the words from my mouth.  

Keep your head up.  Stay positive (I know how hard that is as I'm struggling with that myself)  

Moving actually helped me when I decided I didn't want to be around it.  It's worth thinking about.

Anyway, prayers sent for you.  Keep your chin up.  It's not easy despite what so many think.  
Friends would understand you wanting to stop rather than giving you more- keep that in mind :)

Happy you came back to talk... you know I'm not going to leave, right? I have been through addiction. I know you can do this...

Thanks. I just feel like I've let so many people down...even you. Everyone. I keep saying I'm going to quit and I don't...it's not for lack of trying though. Thanks for being there...

you don't let your friends
down...they let you down,
if they don't stick around...

love and peace, Megs...

I try to tell myself that...but you know, lol. Thanks....missed you all a lot.

Great poem.