untitled -16

It only took one breath
To realize my mistake
Unfortunately it was the last
I fade off to never again wake
The constant struggles of good and evil
That used my soul as a battle ground
Have only sent me to purgatory
Once again I am waiting to be found
Never was sure of heaven or hell
Nor was I curious to find out so soon
But under an intoxicating emotional state
I danced with the devil under the full moon

To which I thought we had made a deal
My soul for his pleasure --no pain for the others
I washed down the pills with another beer
Numb to everything except the unsettling fear
In a whisper I pled to God for him to save me
With no response it was clear
My own brittle faith had simply failed me

Hoping for the lights to get brigther
Slowly they become more dim
My body lying still in the bathtub
The cold water matches the temperature within
I relive memories of the ones I've loved
Hoping the will be able to understand
That this fight was my fight to win
And I did everything I beleived I can
I push hard to keep my eyes open
Telling myself this is not the right time
That if there was one more thing I had to do
I want you to hear I love you one more time.