glitch fractal

 jan. 12, 2011

i can't help thinking
it's possible that all this is just a glitch
the big bang wasn't suppose to happen
wasn't inevitable
wasn't really expected at all
and it's all an anomaly like we are
humans are different and withdrawn from everything else here
we stand out
and we are as much an anomaly as the whole of this existence
the small mimicks the bigger meaning
it came out like a fractal
and no matter how far you go inside
we're repeating the same grander scale
but we don't fit
none of this does
this is all just a break from the void
and we will return to it
it is our mother
God is not the alpha and omega
the beginning and the end
she is
the goddess void
she was always here
there was always a place for nothingness
she must have moved or flinched
or thought in the darkness
had some realization of self awareness
and everything became
but that is not her
Ggod came
she bore him
out of a desire to be recognized of herself
she experienced loneliness
he was only black and white in the void
but he got bored and lonely and moved
twisted
distorted the reflection of himself in the
surface of the sea of consiousness
which spread out eternally in the void
in a light and foggy green
once
twice
a million times
unfolded
made life
evolved himself
Ggod had all potential to be everything that is now and will
till the end of him and and us and all of this
he was a glitch just like the momentary self awareness in the void
which sprung the infinte green sea of consciousness which the Ggod played in
everything within Ggod exploded in the big bang
all this realization and loneliness and boredum and evoltion all occured in a few breif moments
Ggod works fast
it slowed down as things settle from the explotion and became their potential
which at first was cooling
justation
then single cell organisms
then plants
then our distant anthropomorphic relatives
then our primate cousins
then us
the second glitch in the system
we don't make sense next to our relatives
we're differnt
our higher consciousness and all these strange urges and analyzing curious minds able of much
not the highest intelligence
not the most creative
definitely not the most patient and
only rational to an extent
we dont make sense next to the other things in nature
we are the smaller occurence of Ggod in the life fractal
existence fractal
the occurence fractal
we're repeating the strangeness of the Ggod before us
who is also in us
because he had no material but himself to make anything
we are all Ggod
where to next
and whats the smaller glitch of Ggodmanship within us
and the one inside it
ect.
oh we wonder
oh we ask
no dumb questions right?