all for her (stay creepy comp)

 
i reading list everything she writes  
under my alternate avatar  
make anonymous death threats  
then send her a rape whistle  
saying i just want her to be safe  
take double my dose of paxil  
click on her profile  
enlarge the pic  
and masturbate for hours  
think dirtier thoughts then vizard  
and mr. ribeiro sware they have never expressed  
i have sterilized all shapes and sizes of coat hangers  
and stashed them in a brooklyn basement  
just in case she ever concieves with out me  
kidnapped and killed her cat  
then wrote a poem about how i felt so sorry for her  
i have 3778 love letters filed in chronological order  
in a cardboard box i spent hours decorating with black vines and lillies  
in my closet next to my two favorite nooses i just know she'll love  
one day she will see my light and how much i have inside all for her  
the sky will open up and warm this tortured soul  
when she finally decides to don my affections  
i can already feel the way she will smile deep within me  
when i show her the scrapbook i've kept of all the clippings  
from the fires i've lit in her honor  
i adore her  
more than the days before my father died    
when we correspond i wish i could take back my sentences every time i press send  
because i think i may have let on  
too much  
too soon  
things like this take time,i need to not rush in so that she knows i want her as a whole  
body and soul  
then she replies with LMAO and i know  
she really does understand me  
the one and only  
even if she does'nt even know  
me
yet  
i thought about taking a shot at obamma in the true master's fashion  
but i'm not as brave as the previous great john was for jodie  
plus i would never want to risk our future romanticide  
i feel as if she birthed me into this world the day she blessed me  
with her first beautiful comment  
on another one of my reckless writes  
and in the eyes of a child  
mother is  
god