bipolar-ism with angst-ish symptoms

I feel disgusting today
look at my skin
that horrible complexion
look at my eyes
even darker than my skin
blending my whole face
into a large mass of
blah
look at my stomach
not nearly
flat enough
look at my hips
wider than I
I would have ever wanted
and my legs
oh my legs
longer than a giraffes neck
fully extended!
cursed!
I am cursed with looks
not even my mother could love
who would ever want this???

(five minutes later walks past another mirror)

oh, well helloooo sexy!
look at that skin!
the color of delicious chocolate
and the eyes
deeper and darker
than the raging sea
and my body
TOO THICK
too sexy
and them legs!
long and beautiful
like the necks of giraffes
blessed
I am so blessed
with looks that anyone could love
and if they don't love me

I will