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Let Me
Giving me a piece
Just a small bit of you
I begin to take a step
One foot out of my shell
Hesitant to touch the ground
Afraid it might shake and knock me down
You give me small hope
Then as soon as my other foot is out
Almost touching
You take it all away
Not with any words
But rather with none at all
So, quickly I move back inside
Inside my comfortable home
It's made of a hard shell
Difficult to crack
Slow to open
Giving a piece of yourself
It might be easy for you
Giving a piece of myself
Takes a lot out of me
I think too much
Over analyze even more
Let my fears get the better of me
This isn't fair, I know
It's the way I've always been
As long as I can remember, always
How do you change what you've always been?
I don't know
But, I'd sure like to
Knowing would make my life so much better
I guess it'd help if I had support
People that'd understand
That would let me who I long to be
Without freaking out each time I step out
If I could just step out
Touch the ground and feel it stand still
Be that person I know is deep inside
Without everyone making such a big fucking deal
When I do or say something out of character
Let me change my character I'm playing
I want a better one
So let me change
Don't hold me back
I want to change freely
Without any fuss or attention
Just...Let me
Just a small bit of you
I begin to take a step
One foot out of my shell
Hesitant to touch the ground
Afraid it might shake and knock me down
You give me small hope
Then as soon as my other foot is out
Almost touching
You take it all away
Not with any words
But rather with none at all
So, quickly I move back inside
Inside my comfortable home
It's made of a hard shell
Difficult to crack
Slow to open
Giving a piece of yourself
It might be easy for you
Giving a piece of myself
Takes a lot out of me
I think too much
Over analyze even more
Let my fears get the better of me
This isn't fair, I know
It's the way I've always been
As long as I can remember, always
How do you change what you've always been?
I don't know
But, I'd sure like to
Knowing would make my life so much better
I guess it'd help if I had support
People that'd understand
That would let me who I long to be
Without freaking out each time I step out
If I could just step out
Touch the ground and feel it stand still
Be that person I know is deep inside
Without everyone making such a big fucking deal
When I do or say something out of character
Let me change my character I'm playing
I want a better one
So let me change
Don't hold me back
I want to change freely
Without any fuss or attention
Just...Let me
Published 24th Sep 2013
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Anonymous
24th Sep 2013 1:36pm
g_ddammit Tears this is so beautiful! I love the petition for support. The desire to open up. You've done a tremendous service to so many others with the same fears..Thank You beautiful lady, for your courage, it is shining.
Tom
p.s. you may have omitted one word?..That would let me__who I long to be...?
Tom
p.s. you may have omitted one word?..That would let me__who I long to be...?
24th Sep 2013 2:04pm
Thank you! And yes I did leave out a word, thanks for pointing that out! I type so fast I skip words lol.
24th Sep 2013 1:59pm
24th Sep 2013 2:04pm
Thank you Rose. This one was easy to write since it was exactly how I feel :)
24th Sep 2013 4:24pm
Very good upbeat to your poetry and that is what I like about it. Here is an example of why I like youe ending.
Feeling Abandon and Lost Inside
The first thing that I should do is look in the mirror and say what is my name,
This is one reason why I feel so abandon and lost inside,
There is times that I cannot even remember who's my family or friends,
Yes, if you had this feeling lost inside then you would see what it feels like to be me,
As I think of this tears come rolling down my eyes,
Because I feel like my life is hidden away is a deep dark disguise.
Having these feelings or thoughts give me a roller coaster of emotions,
As it makes feel like a freak or a failure or like a creature feature.
Forgetting the memories of my life is hard, and it hurts,
I hope that if you are someone that reads this that you take in what I am trying to say,
Those memories are the ways in life that we will always remember when it is to laugh, cry or smile.
There probably will be a time in our life when those thoughts will be gone.
So please try to take in any and all the memories of your life,
Because as I said earlier it will hard to remember those precious moments,
It is hard, but for me to remember things I have to write my feelings and memories down into words.
For me to even remember life.
Thank you, Lord for giving me this chance to still live.
By Frank Pulver
July 10,2011
Feeling Abandon and Lost Inside
The first thing that I should do is look in the mirror and say what is my name,
This is one reason why I feel so abandon and lost inside,
There is times that I cannot even remember who's my family or friends,
Yes, if you had this feeling lost inside then you would see what it feels like to be me,
As I think of this tears come rolling down my eyes,
Because I feel like my life is hidden away is a deep dark disguise.
Having these feelings or thoughts give me a roller coaster of emotions,
As it makes feel like a freak or a failure or like a creature feature.
Forgetting the memories of my life is hard, and it hurts,
I hope that if you are someone that reads this that you take in what I am trying to say,
Those memories are the ways in life that we will always remember when it is to laugh, cry or smile.
There probably will be a time in our life when those thoughts will be gone.
So please try to take in any and all the memories of your life,
Because as I said earlier it will hard to remember those precious moments,
It is hard, but for me to remember things I have to write my feelings and memories down into words.
For me to even remember life.
Thank you, Lord for giving me this chance to still live.
By Frank Pulver
July 10,2011
25th Sep 2013 3:03am
Thank you so much. I've never read Frank Pulver before. I enjoyed this bit :)
24th Sep 2013 11:16pm
A beautiful, heartfelt poem written to perfection. Two thumbs up and a toe. Well put together ink.
25th Sep 2013 3:04am
16th Dec 2013 8:34am
I really enjoyed this poem from the beginning to about three-fourths the way in... I feel like you almost rushed it finished. While the hurried tone portrays a impatience to be 'like everyone else', I feel like it makes it easy for the reader to get left behind. I would love to see it expanded a bit more. It's a great subject that you can take your time with, in your shell separate from the world.
15th Jan 2014 7:03pm
It's funny you should say that about feeling rushed towards the end. It in fact was a bit rushed because I had all the words in my head and I can only type so fast and I just had to get all the words out before I forgot them, forgot how to get it out. I'd actually meant to come back to this and see what I could do to make it better, but you know life....it just gets in the way sometimes :)
