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TEARS OF AWE ('Temple of Sinawava', Zion National Park, 2-14-2001)
february 14th
valentines day
i stood
in zions
open heart
looking up
as i
walked
soul deep
in heartfelt
prayer
when such
breathtaking magic
so suddenly
came
to melt
my
woeful
many years
of glacial
inner pain
away
as fat
white
snowflakes fell
from thousands
of feet
high above
down from
cloud roofed
sheer
red rock
ancient
canyon walls
like angels
descending
en masse
bright snow
fell
slow mo
white flow
falling
everywhere
all around
me
as i
felt
my heart
open
so widely
lifting
high up
out
of me
in
deep utter
sudden
emotional awe
rising upwards
through
dense purity
of so
much falling
whiteness
falling
gently
falling
so silently
falling falling
like all
of heaven
coming down
in a
continuous rush
of magically
descending
countless
delicate
white stars
freeing
captive ecstasy
from an
ever expanding
hidden galaxy
somehow lost
or subconsciously
suppressed
or far
too long
forgotten
somewhere deep
inside me
something missing
so startlingly
re found
in this
unexpected
staggeringly profound
most wondrous
moments release
of frozen
heavens
healing touch
coming
coming down
all
at once
as i
looked up
beyond
the breathtaking
peace filled
awe
of zions
towering
ancient
red rock
canyon walls
just in
time
to witness
the very
second
the snow
cloud filled
highest
sky roof
above
all came
falling down
to gently
touch
and kiss
my upturned
faces
prayerful gaze
then completely
embrace and
engulf me
along with
all this
beautiful
visible world
around me
dressing everything
in sight
with its
epiphanic answer
to all
my
heartfelt prayers
whereupon
an equally
sudden stream
of tears
welled up
filling
my eyes
running down
in such
effortlessly surrendered
sweet release
from cheek
to chin
to snowy ground
all around
my
ugg boot
covered
warm feet
down below
where
the only
thing
keeping me
feeling
still somewhat
connected
yet barely
tethered
and anchored
between
this sweet
snowy earth
and the
purest embrace
of these
open soul
heavens
rapturously transcendent
healing
white flow
uplifting
my heart
mind
and spirit
from above
spontaneously releasing
ecstatic tears
of joy
from my
heart to
my eyes
which freely
fell
like warm
fluid diamonds
back down
into the
snow at
my feet
as i
walked further
on
out into
the wondrous
overwhelming
beauty
and truly
magical oneness
of it
all
while
fully realizing
all
the while
that i
was surely
seeing
in a
sacred manner
in which
my tears
continued
to gently
and silently
fall
along with
the steadily
falling snow
softly to
the ground
i noticed
and saw
as soon
as each
one
hit the
snowy ground
beneath me
they left
no stain
at all
but only
a tiny
little hole
in its
freely
released
emancipated
escapes refrains
upon
into
the freshly
fallen
powdery snows
frozen
white earth
below
wherein
that
very moment
i immediately
felt
and knew
that something
had deeply
turned
and changed
within me
on that
day of
so much
silent
whiteness
falling
falling
down
where i
was so
completely
blown away
so thoroughly
swallowed up
in such
tender
painful
merciful beauty
which reminded
me through
its transcendent
grace alone
of something
too long
forgotten
yet always
innately known
by me
so magically
so wondrously
returned
and reminded
so beautifully
reconfirmed
to me
here now
once again
in this
truly natural
most spiritual
baptismal cleansing
purge
of heavens
soft kisses
silent
healing
pure blissful
unexpected descent
through this
spontaneous
benevolent gift
some deeper
truly transformational
shift
occurred through
the startled
sudden surprise
of my
bleary
tear filled
eyes
and my
widely
opened heart
as i
realized in
the sweeping
awe
and magical
heavenly wonderment
of its
timeless
sacred gift
while
all sense
of my
usual
egoic identitys
self
was completely
suspended
shut off
in the
glorious midst
of such
truly indescribable
ineffable beauty
and in
the beautiful
stunned relief
and heightened
awareness
which came
upon my
sudden realization
that my
soul deep
prayers
of so
many
near hopeless
lost
dark years
had finally
it seems
at so
very
long last
been both
heard
and answered
without even
the slightest
signs of
any still
lingering
inner doubts
fears nor tears
now left here
remaining
within me
to scream
or cry out
at all
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