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    TEARS OF AWE     ('Temple of Sinawava', Zion National Park, 2-14-2001)      

             
february 14th              
valentines day              
i stood            
in zions              
open heart              
looking up              
as i            
walked              
soul deep              
in heartfelt              
prayer              
when such          
breathtaking magic
so suddenly      
came              
to melt            
my              
woeful              
many years              
of glacial              
inner pain              
away              
as fat        
white              
snowflakes fell              
from thousands              
of feet              
high above              
down from              
cloud roofed              
sheer          
red rock          
ancient          
canyon walls              
like angels              
descending              
en masse              
bright snow            
fell              
slow mo              
white flow              
falling              
everywhere                
all around          
me               
as i        
felt          
my heart      
open        
so widely         
lifting      
high up          
out        
of me        
in        
deep  utter         
sudden        
emotional awe            
rising upwards             
through              
dense purity              
of so            
much falling        
whiteness              
falling              
gently              
falling              
so silently            
falling  falling          
like all          
of heaven          
coming  down        
in a        
continuous rush        
of magically        
descending        
countless            
delicate        
white stars              
freeing              
captive ecstasy              
from an              
ever expanding              
hidden galaxy              
somehow lost        
or subconsciously        
suppressed              
or far        
too long              
forgotten                
somewhere deep              
inside me              
something  missing          
so startlingly          
re found                      
in this        
unexpected        
staggeringly profound        
most wondrous        
moments release        
of frozen        
heavens        
healing touch        
coming      
coming down        
all        
at once        
as i        
looked up        
beyond        
the breathtaking  
peace filled  
awe       
of zions        
towering        
ancient      
red rock        
canyon walls        
just in        
time        
to witness        
the very        
second        
the snow        
cloud filled        
highest        
sky roof        
above        
all came      
falling down        
to gently        
touch        
and kiss        
my upturned        
faces        
prayerful gaze        
then completely        
embrace and        
engulf me        
along with        
all this        
beautiful        
visible world        
around me            
dressing everything        
in sight        
with its        
epiphanic answer        
to all        
my        
heartfelt prayers        
whereupon        
an equally        
sudden stream            
of tears        
welled up        
filling        
my eyes             
running down              
in such              
effortlessly surrendered  
sweet release              
from cheek          
to chin          
to snowy ground  
all around  
my  
ugg boot  
covered  
warm feet  
down below  
where  
the only  
thing  
keeping me  
feeling  
still somewhat  
connected  
yet barely  
tethered  
and anchored  
between  
this sweet  
snowy earth  
and the  
purest embrace  
of these  
open soul  
heavens  
rapturously transcendent  
healing  
white flow  
uplifting  
my heart  
mind  
and spirit  
from above  
spontaneously releasing       
ecstatic tears  
of joy  
from my  
heart to  
my eyes  
which freely  
fell  
like warm  
fluid diamonds  
back down  
into the  
snow at  
my feet  
as i  
walked further  
on  
out into  
the wondrous  
overwhelming  
beauty  
and truly  
magical oneness  
of it  
all  
while  
fully realizing  
all  
the while  
that i  
was surely  
seeing  
in a  
sacred manner  
in which  
my tears  
continued  
to gently  
and silently  
fall  
along with  
the steadily  
falling snow  
softly to  
the ground  
i noticed  
and saw  
as soon  
as each  
one  
hit the  
snowy ground  
beneath me  
they left  
no stain  
at all  
but only              
a tiny  
little hole            
in its              
freely              
released               
emancipated              
escapes refrains  
upon            
into  
the freshly  
fallen  
powdery snows  
frozen          
white earth          
below        
wherein        
that        
very moment        
i immediately         
felt        
and knew        
that something        
had deeply              
turned        
and changed              
within me              
on that              
day of              
so much              
silent              
whiteness              
falling              
falling              
down              
where i          
was so          
completely          
blown away              
so thoroughly            
swallowed up              
in such              
tender              
painful            
merciful beauty              
which reminded        
me through            
its transcendent             
grace alone              
of something              
too long        
forgotten          
yet always          
innately known          
by me          
so magically              
so wondrously              
returned        
and reminded  
so beautifully  
reconfirmed    
to me         
here now              
once again  
in this            
truly natural        
most spiritual            
baptismal cleansing  
purge           
of heavens              
soft kisses              
silent            
healing              
pure blissful  
unexpected descent                
through this              
spontaneous              
benevolent gift              
some deeper              
truly transformational             
shift  
occurred through            
the startled  
sudden surprise             
of my            
bleary          
tear filled            
eyes          
and my  
widely          
opened heart              
as i            
realized in            
the sweeping              
awe              
and magical  
heavenly wonderment         
of its            
timeless        
sacred gift        
while        
all sense         
of my  
usual  
egoic identitys  
self        
was completely            
suspended  
shut off            
in the        
glorious midst        
of such            
truly indescribable  
ineffable beauty          
and in        
the beautiful        
stunned relief  
and heightened  
awareness  
which came    
upon my  
sudden realization           
that my              
soul deep              
prayers  
of so  
many  
near hopeless  
lost    
dark years            
had finally  
it seems  
at so  
very  
long last      
been both  
heard              
and answered                    
without even       
the slightest  
signs of  
any still  
lingering        
inner doubts
fears nor tears  
now left here
remaining
within me
to scream
or cry out
at all         
       
       
       
 
Written by OyateInyanNajin
Published | Edited 21st Mar 2024
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