this is not a life

This Is Not a Life

I sleep with the lights on, still
Always been afraid, of the dark
Childhood shit
It’s left many scars

I leave all the house lights on
Day and night, check all the doors
And window locks
Check my watch, and the clock
I need time frames, for my life

Tv and radio are always on
Don’t feel safe, those times are gone
I am a prisoner, in my own home
Always alone
No phone
No one
Just me and my fear
No friends, no family
No pets, just sheer shit
That’s what my life is