For Love of Pain

I take the black bottle you gave me
Turning it over in my hands, here
Poisoned with the taste of you
Lingering on my lips, my dear

Movement of your hips with mine
Still constantly swirling in my head,
With my longing for you coming on
But I stare into empty air instead

Trembling hands open the bottle
Lift it to my thirsty mouth, I'm okay
Taste is bittersweet, pain in my throat
But I drink and drink it all away

I let it flow as a waterfall into me
My mind slowly growing numb
I still keep drinking the toxin
Even though I know it's dumb

I swallow the pain you rain on me
I take it and refuse shelter from it
It's in my reach, I can see its warmth
But burning pleasure is what I get

I tried to leave twice to no avail
Now I don't even want to anymore
It's of my own doing now
It was my hands that locked the door

I'm in too deep now can't give up
I'm addicted to your love baby
I'll never have enough, never
So I'm not ever gonna stay shady

I drink my pain like its a drug
Oh I used to not be like this
I Used to run away from it
But change gave birth to a masochist

I wouldn't change a thing now
Don't cloud your mind in dismay
I love you and I'll never leave
Know I mean what I say

It's not all bad days and feelings
The pain fades into a euphoria
The best I could ever have
I win, you're mine forever, I'm victorious