The Ugly Side of a Dream

"Twinkle twinkle Hollywood star
How I wonder who you are
Up on that pedestal high
Head in the clouds in the sky"

-- KittyFromHell

Fantasies of fame and recognition
Sharing ones music with the world
Having the attention and smiles
Directed at a small town girl

so many get lost in the comotion
I don't want the path they wandered
Forgetting who they are and how
The joy and passion of it was their starter

I want the dream I entertain so precious
But I don't want to become the slave
Of those who criticize and control
And dig my own star studded grave

The sincerity and the young enthusiasm
The genuine smiling and laughing  
The loss of that blessed emotion
To the robotic artificiality of just working

I'm afraid of losing myself in the chaos
The madness that is media and show biz
I don't want to become blind to reality
And fail to see what really is

Then there's the worry and  doubt
That I'm not even good enough to begin
That maybe just an ugly pretty face
And a casting couch would get me in

I won't sacrifice who I am with my music
I won't change my heart and song
I won't be plastic and monotonous
To change my authenticity is wrong