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Though a Man
Though I am a Man,
Yes; sometimes I do get little nervous, an scared,
A bit unsure bout myself and things,
When I was younger, I was stronger, So much stronger;
I didn’t get so confused
I was sure, always had an answer
I always knew what to do, what to think,
What to say an not to say,,
I was quick, fast, strong, and enduring,
Life hadn’t beaten me down yet,
I was… Fearless,
But now, now I need help, and comfort,
My innocence was lost, an my faith in fellow man,
Like being stranded without Love,
And the inner light, that once used to shine so bright,
For myself, and for others,
Is now a Dark, unforgiving, bitter, resentful force;
Wounded in Love and now wounded in hate,
There is no time to think, as I slowly sink;
Lovers and friends, once thought of as closer than me,
Now vanished with sorrow,
Not even sure I really exist anymore,
My Judges they become
In humility, they curse me, silently torching me,
Bitter and scorned, left bloodied in the mud,
Fighting to stay safe and warm
I need shelter from my storms
Yes; sometimes I do get little nervous, an scared,
A bit unsure bout myself and things,
When I was younger, I was stronger, So much stronger;
I didn’t get so confused
I was sure, always had an answer
I always knew what to do, what to think,
What to say an not to say,,
I was quick, fast, strong, and enduring,
Life hadn’t beaten me down yet,
I was… Fearless,
But now, now I need help, and comfort,
My innocence was lost, an my faith in fellow man,
Like being stranded without Love,
And the inner light, that once used to shine so bright,
For myself, and for others,
Is now a Dark, unforgiving, bitter, resentful force;
Wounded in Love and now wounded in hate,
There is no time to think, as I slowly sink;
Lovers and friends, once thought of as closer than me,
Now vanished with sorrow,
Not even sure I really exist anymore,
My Judges they become
In humility, they curse me, silently torching me,
Bitter and scorned, left bloodied in the mud,
Fighting to stay safe and warm
I need shelter from my storms
Published 6th Sep 2013
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Anonymous
6th Sep 2013 7:44pm
Precious Friend, I feel this most of the time. All answers are deep with in yourself. Not in the soul of another. I learned paying the price of my own. Thinking I meant something. The words still run thru my soul as if said yesterday. No bond, no feelings......nothing! I take each day now when it passes me by. Being stripped of your passion and security of luv is hard to get past. Everyday you wish you didn't exist cause it seems so as friends don't even take time to wave anymore. You look in the mirror daily, just out of habit. Hoping that the broken reflection you see has some pieces put back together. Only to find more has broken. My Sweet Friend.......look beyond your own surface. Find that strength that is now hidden. You need people cause you have convinced yourself you do. Renew your faith where it should be......GOD and in YOURSELF! Renew the faith in yourself that others have hurt you to lose. Take back YOU! Look in that mirror and see that person you want to be and claim him back. Search your soul deeper than you ever have. It will hurt and you will bleed, but you will survive. I have! Sending luv, hugs and prayers our way. Xoxo :)
8th Sep 2013 3:54am
Hello friend; sorry took me so long to reply to this, it instantly knocked me out, an felt my self get stronger remembering a past strength, it made me pause an think real hard on the words that you said to me... YES, You are right, in ALL that you have said to me, Love ya my good friend: deadwolf/Eddie
Anonymous
7th Sep 2013 1:35am
This is what happens as we get older. We learn that we are not the invincible beings we thought we were when we were younger. It does not mean we are less, just that now we understand what we have yet to learn - about ourselves and others.
10th Sep 2013 5:57pm
