Suffocating

 
Heaven’s rains pour down
God, that’s such a cliché
Is it raining because I’m crying
Or am I crying because it’s raining?

All I can do is shake my head
Fanatically, begging you not to touch me
Not this time
Please leave me alone
But I know you won’t
You never do

I can only flinch
As your dirty hands touch my skin
Frozen with fear
I know what comes next

I can’t move, can’t speak
Fighting is what you want
It only takes longer as you take what you desire
How did I get in this position?
I know how to fight, defend myself
I know my way around a gun

But, I did fight
You were bigger, stronger
My barely five foot frame no match for your stature
And you stole my gun

So here I am
Under your hands
Your body
Wanting to fight, but I can’t give you that pleasure

And as you tie me down
Hit me and use me
I silently, stagnantly wait
Till I find that perfect moment

To kill you
And dig myself out of this
Coffin and grave
You’ve kept me in