This Ache.

 Do you feel it?
So used to the ache,
That seems to pound louder and louder.
Numb isn't in my dictionary,
How do you pronounce?
I'm tired of these circles we make.
Create,
Erase,
Repeat.
Tears long dried up,
Anger long dispersed.
I want that happy ending,
With you and I.
Just together with no worries,
No doubts.
BUT.

I'm here.
You're there.
We both seem to drift,
Everytime we grow close.
Does that make sense?
Does that mean anything to you?

I wanted to wear the special ring,
That shines even in the darkest days.
Be the shoulder you cried on,
When you try so hard to hide those tears.
To wake up next to you,
With your last name.

BUT.

We both seem to drift,
Everytime we grow close.

I fell in love with your hidden smile.
The one you lock with chains,
In the back of your closet.
I fell for my Tradameion,
BUT,
This love is aching.