cant see me

waiting in anxious silence
the only sound is my breath catching
i am without fear but only when your here
i was so strangely afraid of lonely
but aha i guess i am alone even when your here
why would i dilute myself
these times ive had are stressful at best
and silence from you is all there is
no ringing phone except to lie again
your right by me and cant see me
im a ghost of me to you i never was
anything either with you or apart
i wasnt anything like you were to  me
the endlessness i feel is hope fadeing into death
i exhale and it is the end
i lived and died in you for you alone sustained me