The Runaway

I'm trapped to my own... Misery? Why am I taking more steps, When I don't know where I'm going, Or what will happen next, Fuelling up cus my heart is drained, Feeling low, Feeling strange, And my feet hurt, It's like my shoes are getting smaller, My feet are growing and I'm getting taller, Suffocating slow, Breathing really hard, I know the pain I shouldn't show, Stay composed retain your image... Should it matter to me, What they say when I leave? Or should I be one of the few, Everybody wished they knew, That sounds better to me, Keep it to myself and continue to believe, More is destined for me, That much I do know, I have seen hell and since then I have come so far, I nearly died, huh, twice now, Heaven is close, Heaven is on the horizon, I can hear the angels singing now, I want to be the one guy everybody could see in the crowd, I want to stand out... Without being loud, But my impact will be supreme, When I make it, So does everybody on my team, I didn't mean that last part... Thinking now, I want to be on the other side of the crowd, Give me a chance and watch me take off, I've been prepared for flight for some time now, But grounded because politics are crazy, Seeing double my vision is slanted, Seeing a few girls but I'm not distracted, Some would say so... But I see the lies, Looking through my empty glass of henne, I could see the devils eyes, Show no fear and when times are hard shed no tears, Follow your heart and protect your dreams, Don't listen to your peers, Evil lurks and evil seeks out the lonely, People who never knew what love was, People who never knew what home was, And people who never felt appreciated, The people who were forgotten, Those who once was, We have to be careful, Because the righteous path is narrow, We have to be precise with our thoughts, We have to stay sharp like a dart or an arrow, Point me in the right direction... I will carry on with good intentions, I'm feeling worn down I figured I would, But the fire in me still burns, And as long as I'm breathing we will never live in the shadows, Clouded by judgement but the sun will shine on us, And one day love will find us, Stay true and for now be cool, Follow the rules, Rather the laws of god, Don't be scared when you bend or break them, We were born damned and flawed, Just smile share it with the world, In time things will change, When they are meant to, And don't be ashamed to fall... When you trip, We all slip, Reap the benefits of each privilege you are given, We need to make the most of our opportunities now, Or damn it we will be stuck in a mental prison, I'm going to break through the wall... With a sonic boom, The power of my heart will be enough to overcome any obstacle, Fuelled up its been a while, Even when I'm angry and I see you... I can't help but smile, Rambling on now for not much longer, My point I was trying to get across was... Our families need to be much stronger, We come together in times of grief, I stand confused, Unwilling to participate in this sad charade, Acting like it's all good... When we haven't spoken in years, Countless walks alone, Lessons learned alone, Tears and time lost and even in the future I will probably be alone, I'm just a castaway, The last outlaw, This is the aftermath and I'm about to run away, I just need to get away, get away, get away, If ever I have seen further, It is because I stand on the shoulders of giants, I don't dwell on the past, Even in my time of defiance, As I deteriorate and move on from this, I use my last breath, My last wish, All on this message, This was the last kiss.

-cj