Who Knows

When you are feeling depressed and alone, Somewhere in the world those you wish knew, Are together without a care, You wish you were there, But it wouldn't be the same, My heart is affected, But nobody knows, Does it even matter? Who the hell knows, Standing against the torment of time, My eyes widen, contemplating committing a crime, will I do it this time? Who the hell knows, Never felt satisfied, Never had much, But who the hell cares, Is anyone even there? I don't know, Hands together as I kneel, Looking to the sky wishing I had feathers, Praying that I could fly,  If I jump will anyone even be there? Does it even matter, Does anybody even care? Who the hell knows, Missing the good times, Which come very seldom, I could never hear god, But lord knows I felt him, Feeling anxious with a hopeless desperation for more, I've seen so much trouble, I can't imagine anymore, I marvel at the rose that grew from concrete, The hopeless man who got up, To rise on his own two feet, He's my example of success, When I'm feeling defeated, I pray for those who cheated me, I never understood why, But who the hell cares? Will it make a difference if people knew, How I felt inside? I don't think it matters, But this was meant for those, Who never knew what to do, And for everybody who lost control, Listen to me now, Follow in the footsteps of the rose, Now I know god chose me, To make a difference, So ask me again, Who the hell cares? Someone does, Will anybody be there? Somebody will, Will I find hope? Someday chill, Will I survive the night? The sun is just over the hill, Will I find love? One day and it will be real, Are you sure? Who the hell knows.

-cj