Questioning

I was there for it all
Through the hot summmer days
And through the cold winter night
The time that I needed you
You weren't there
Yet I stay at your side
I stayed even though I crashed and burned an uncountable times
I lay in ruins while you just move on
Nothing said to me
So now I lay in the icy snow
Only wanting to feel something
But the only thing that I have left is a cold steel barrel against my temple