This beautiful Lie

I stand there all
alone. I can't help
that how I feel.
With you gone and
me alone. I fall into
a different zone.
I'm gone for the
rest of time.
I'm just out of reach.
I see my self fall
to the floor as someone
comes through the door.
I've done it again,
We should have never been.
We are going to turn
out to be my lovely end.
I take the bottle and
try to make this pain
go for good.
It's just my time
to be in the right
place for the frist
time.
I'm tired of living
in this beautiful
lie and I'm more then
ready to face the ugly
truth.