"Mom"

I'm not supposed to miss you.
I'm not supposed to care.
I'm not supposed to grow up,
Wishing my "mom" was here.
I'm not supposed to wonder where you are,
Or think of what you're up to.
I know i'm not supposed to think you'll change.
I can't help it, i still do.
I'm not supposed to stand up for you.
When others bring you down.
I do it anyways.
Although you weren't and still aren't around.
I'm not supposed to want you to change.
I know in my heart you never will.
You're the one who walked away.
Look who misses you still.
Can't help myself, but to think..
I still need a "mom."
I give you my all; Even when i shouldn't.
I think of you and my siblings through the day..
Sad thing is I don't wanna believe that you're gone forever.
~Lost and Lonely~ ~Gone Forever~