another April without me..

well two red lines..im finally going to try and be a father
"aren't you already a dad,"
no,
im a dissapointment with a daughter.

im a winner without risk,
I keep bruises without fighting,
losing my will to make this point,so i try and find a place to buy them..

bridesmaids brandishing posies
a ring around your trigger finger,
wishing i could fire against my memories,
making ashes of what i hate to remember.

a joke to fit in with day,
cause i know being a dad is cool
but my absent because of my actions
has made me the only fool.