Submissions by u53l355 (The_Real_Grifta)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I like to write , I have terrible grammar, spelling ect ect , but I have emotion and passion .
SELF POEM
Published
6th May 2021 3:22pm
6th May 2021 3:22pm
Thoughts
#anxiety
#depression
#loneliness
#dreams
#SelfWorth
441 reads
6 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
5th May 2021 3:35pm
5th May 2021 3:35pm
I did this myself
It's hard to find the words that I'd like to express
Short breath reaching for air compressed in my chest
I'm so sick and tired of trying to do my best
Just giving up so when I'm gone your mind can finally rest
The possibility of something came from nothing
Nothing waits in darkness and its silently judging
Words keep punching me and holding me down
Kicked in the side crushing me as and I drown
Years of resent , love and hate
To fall in cave I made mistakes
Stuck to shadows to keep out the crowds
Aligned to the gallows , the...
Short breath reaching for air compressed in my chest
I'm so sick and tired of trying to do my best
Just giving up so when I'm gone your mind can finally rest
The possibility of something came from nothing
Nothing waits in darkness and its silently judging
Words keep punching me and holding me down
Kicked in the side crushing me as and I drown
Years of resent , love and hate
To fall in cave I made mistakes
Stuck to shadows to keep out the crowds
Aligned to the gallows , the...
#anxiety
#love
#depression
#breakup
#LifeStruggles
541 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
29th Apr 2021 7:53pm
29th Apr 2021 7:53pm
And I still can't sleep
Another night
Sleep deprived
I know that I'm tired
I guess it's alright . NO!
It's not ok it's another night where I lye wide awake.
Another feeling of guilt that I just can not shake
It's the stress
A test ?
Set in motions from a greater power have I provoked them ? NO !
Then why can't I dream ? Paralyzed on this bed and can't even scream .
Help me ? No
I do this my own , I put myself here as I polished your throne .
Rome , wasn't built in a day
One thing is clear that someone else paid with mistakes ....
...
Sleep deprived
I know that I'm tired
I guess it's alright . NO!
It's not ok it's another night where I lye wide awake.
Another feeling of guilt that I just can not shake
It's the stress
A test ?
Set in motions from a greater power have I provoked them ? NO !
Then why can't I dream ? Paralyzed on this bed and can't even scream .
Help me ? No
I do this my own , I put myself here as I polished your throne .
Rome , wasn't built in a day
One thing is clear that someone else paid with mistakes ....
...
#sadness
#anxiety
#insomnia
#sleep
#fear
382 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
28th Apr 2021 3:49pm
28th Apr 2021 3:49pm
Labelled me
#anger
#hate
#breakup #SelfReflection
#breakup #SelfReflection
464 reads
3 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
22nd Apr 2021 5:21pm
22nd Apr 2021 5:21pm
Shame
It’s the feeling you get when you know you have caused pain to A significant other , a friend or just someone else . The knowing that your actions will cause destruction in even the most thickest of skinned. It’s heart ache caused by self sabotage and all you can do is drink it away while knowing full well that it was the drink that started it all . With no one left to turn to in your time of need you turn to the shelf of empty promises and full bottles . I’m ashamed of myself , going thru this self hate because I know I am fucking up , mind makes excuses to justify my actions when the truth...
#love
#regret
#shame
411 reads
0 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
22nd Apr 2021 4:20pm
22nd Apr 2021 4:20pm
Flight-143 (Sall's Rejection)
Carried away by my minds departure
Like a jet plane leaving at sunrise
From the ground it seems to float by
It’s almost inconceivable
In the cockpit the sounds of the engines roar
turbulence frightening the passengers
as the craft hits irregular violent waves
It feels like I'm going down…
maybe ?
Maybe if the passengers had of drank enough on the flight
Maybe they would have slept right through
Maybe if the child in front wasn’t screaming
Maybe it wouldn’t all seem so bad
A Voice can be heard over the PA telling them...
Like a jet plane leaving at sunrise
From the ground it seems to float by
It’s almost inconceivable
In the cockpit the sounds of the engines roar
turbulence frightening the passengers
as the craft hits irregular violent waves
It feels like I'm going down…
maybe ?
Maybe if the passengers had of drank enough on the flight
Maybe they would have slept right through
Maybe if the child in front wasn’t screaming
Maybe it wouldn’t all seem so bad
A Voice can be heard over the PA telling them...
#anxiety
#love
#depression
#rejection
#fear
348 reads
0 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
19th Apr 2021 2:44pm
19th Apr 2021 2:44pm
A Beach Side Story
I still remember when I first saw you
My heart stopped like a rabbit on the freeway
The parking lot lights shine beams of warmth
Illuminating the divider lines painted white on the bitumen
The boot of the car open , insides hands tied tight
A glimmer of red emanates from the rear break light
As muffled screams are carried through the wind
Alas I have you…
Deserted by beach side and the rustling of the tree’s
At 3am any sounds will be memories of their sea breeze dreams.
I would never guess that beauty...
My heart stopped like a rabbit on the freeway
The parking lot lights shine beams of warmth
Illuminating the divider lines painted white on the bitumen
The boot of the car open , insides hands tied tight
A glimmer of red emanates from the rear break light
As muffled screams are carried through the wind
Alas I have you…
Deserted by beach side and the rustling of the tree’s
At 3am any sounds will be memories of their sea breeze dreams.
I would never guess that beauty...
#regret
#hate
#lust
#heartbroken
#obsession
432 reads
3 Comments
SONG LYRICS
Published
19th Apr 2021 2:44pm
19th Apr 2021 2:44pm
Bully Bait
Why don’t you Hang around for a little while
With ya shoes 2 feet above the kitchen tiles
You think that my life is all rainbows and fucking smiles
Don’t know me from all the other piles
Of people chasing life's happiness
I'm holding a rock at the bottom of the loch ness
Monsters in my head as the hate keeps brewing
Stewing over times where i wanted die chewing
sponges soaked in cyanide
Blood dripping out my fucking eyes
Tryna hide away from the memories
Flash backs of dumb shit thats been said to me
Actions speak louder...
With ya shoes 2 feet above the kitchen tiles
You think that my life is all rainbows and fucking smiles
Don’t know me from all the other piles
Of people chasing life's happiness
I'm holding a rock at the bottom of the loch ness
Monsters in my head as the hate keeps brewing
Stewing over times where i wanted die chewing
sponges soaked in cyanide
Blood dripping out my fucking eyes
Tryna hide away from the memories
Flash backs of dumb shit thats been said to me
Actions speak louder...
#lyrics
#rap
#SelfWorth
656 reads
0 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
13th Apr 2021 3:10pm
13th Apr 2021 3:10pm
The silver lining
Clouded thoughts clearing as my mind begins to open , realising I often speak with no filter to determine someones reaction as the twisted words that leave my mouth leave cringes on the faces of those who have given me a chance of interaction
I'm starting to question my motivation
A quest for attention has lead me to this life of solitude , of course people can't take a joke when the humour isn't funny , people have backgrounds and pasts and all these years I've acted like it's a joke !
Just because I don't take anything to heart , just because I have been...
I'm starting to question my motivation
A quest for attention has lead me to this life of solitude , of course people can't take a joke when the humour isn't funny , people have backgrounds and pasts and all these years I've acted like it's a joke !
Just because I don't take anything to heart , just because I have been...
#depression
#regret
#loneliness
#ImSorry
#suicide
631 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
12th Apr 2021 4:14pm
12th Apr 2021 4:14pm
I'm not perfect but...
I'm not perfect
I'm far from it
I tell myself I'm sorry
But my mind won't accept it
My sense of humour is warped
I guess my filter is broken
These are my excuses
True words are unspoken
Am I afraid ?
I don't want to get hurt again
Push all you like but
I just can't let you in
I will stay closed
And not walk into the open
Sometimes I'll say
Stuff that I don't even mean
Because you react and it keeps you away from me
I know I'm not a bad person
I wish I would let you see
I know...
I'm far from it
I tell myself I'm sorry
But my mind won't accept it
My sense of humour is warped
I guess my filter is broken
These are my excuses
True words are unspoken
Am I afraid ?
I don't want to get hurt again
Push all you like but
I just can't let you in
I will stay closed
And not walk into the open
Sometimes I'll say
Stuff that I don't even mean
Because you react and it keeps you away from me
I know I'm not a bad person
I wish I would let you see
I know...
#sadness
#depression
#loneliness
#despair
#emptiness
1001 reads
0 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
5th Mar 2021 3:19pm
5th Mar 2021 3:19pm
I know I have lost
The markings of a familiar face left embedded in my brain
It's been years since I had seen her red eyes and tears of pain
She left me with permanent scaring in not only my flesh but scratchings etched inside me as I opened up to her and came out of hiding . I thought I had escaped this abuse but the flash memories will never go away .
It's like a photo taken with a timer but the smile was much wider as you waited for what seems like an eternal 10seconds , the photo that's taken must be mistaken as my smile is replaced with a frown .
I didn't care about the money I...
It's been years since I had seen her red eyes and tears of pain
She left me with permanent scaring in not only my flesh but scratchings etched inside me as I opened up to her and came out of hiding . I thought I had escaped this abuse but the flash memories will never go away .
It's like a photo taken with a timer but the smile was much wider as you waited for what seems like an eternal 10seconds , the photo that's taken must be mistaken as my smile is replaced with a frown .
I didn't care about the money I...
#anxiety
#depression
#loneliness
#insomnia
#PTSD
540 reads
0 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
4th Mar 2021 6:30pm
4th Mar 2021 6:30pm
Can't sleep
Can't sleep
Frowning , so tired but in these thoughts
Drowning In memories , I can't pass the middle of this hour glass but the sands of time past through me .
Can't sleep
Having feelings of guilt from the stupid stuff I did to myself and the selfishness sells like discounted clothes with only slight defects .
Reflects burning and image in me , LCD screen left on over night settings too bright leaving the lines .
Can't sleep
I'm wide awake , for fuck sakes I got to be up in three hours , taking a shower , iron my shirt to...
Frowning , so tired but in these thoughts
Drowning In memories , I can't pass the middle of this hour glass but the sands of time past through me .
Can't sleep
Having feelings of guilt from the stupid stuff I did to myself and the selfishness sells like discounted clothes with only slight defects .
Reflects burning and image in me , LCD screen left on over night settings too bright leaving the lines .
Can't sleep
I'm wide awake , for fuck sakes I got to be up in three hours , taking a shower , iron my shirt to...
#anxiety
#depression
#insomnia #sleep
#insomnia #sleep
501 reads
2 Comments
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