Submissions by u53l355
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Bully Bait
Why don’t you Hang around for a little while
With ya shoes 2 feet above the kitchen tiles
You think that my life is all rainbows and fucking smiles
Don’t know me from all the other piles
Of people chasing life's happiness
I'm holding a rock at the bottom of the loch ness
Monsters in my head as the hate keeps brewing
Stewing over times where i wanted die chewing
sponges soaked in cyanide
Blood dripping out my fucking eyes
Tryna hide away from the memories
Flash backs of dumb shit thats been said to me
Actions speak louder...
With ya shoes 2 feet above the kitchen tiles
You think that my life is all rainbows and fucking smiles
Don’t know me from all the other piles
Of people chasing life's happiness
I'm holding a rock at the bottom of the loch ness
Monsters in my head as the hate keeps brewing
Stewing over times where i wanted die chewing
sponges soaked in cyanide
Blood dripping out my fucking eyes
Tryna hide away from the memories
Flash backs of dumb shit thats been said to me
Actions speak louder...
#lyrics
#rap
#SelfWorth
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The silver lining
Clouded thoughts clearing as my mind begins to open , realising I often speak with no filter to determine someones reaction as the twisted words that leave my mouth leave cringes on the faces of those who have given me a chance of interaction
I'm starting to question my motivation
A quest for attention has lead me to this life of solitude , of course people can't take a joke when the humour isn't funny , people have backgrounds and pasts and all these years I've acted like it's a joke !
Just because I don't take anything to heart , just because I have been...
I'm starting to question my motivation
A quest for attention has lead me to this life of solitude , of course people can't take a joke when the humour isn't funny , people have backgrounds and pasts and all these years I've acted like it's a joke !
Just because I don't take anything to heart , just because I have been...
#depression
#regret
#loneliness
#ImSorry
#suicide
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I'm not perfect but...
I'm not perfect
I'm far from it
I tell myself I'm sorry
But my mind won't accept it
My sense of humour is warped
I guess my filter is broken
These are my excuses
True words are unspoken
Am I afraid ?
I don't want to get hurt again
Push all you like but
I just can't let you in
I will stay closed
And not walk into the open
Sometimes I'll say
Stuff that I don't even mean
Because you react and it keeps you away from me
I know I'm not a bad person
I wish I would let you see
I know...
I'm far from it
I tell myself I'm sorry
But my mind won't accept it
My sense of humour is warped
I guess my filter is broken
These are my excuses
True words are unspoken
Am I afraid ?
I don't want to get hurt again
Push all you like but
I just can't let you in
I will stay closed
And not walk into the open
Sometimes I'll say
Stuff that I don't even mean
Because you react and it keeps you away from me
I know I'm not a bad person
I wish I would let you see
I know...
#sadness
#depression
#loneliness
#despair
#emptiness
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I know I have lost
The markings of a familiar face left embedded in my brain
It's been years since I had seen her red eyes and tears of pain
She left me with permanent scaring in not only my flesh but scratchings etched inside me as I opened up to her and came out of hiding . I thought I had escaped this abuse but the flash memories will never go away .
It's like a photo taken with a timer but the smile was much wider as you waited for what seems like an eternal 10seconds , the photo that's taken must be mistaken as my smile is replaced with a frown .
I didn't care about the money I...
It's been years since I had seen her red eyes and tears of pain
She left me with permanent scaring in not only my flesh but scratchings etched inside me as I opened up to her and came out of hiding . I thought I had escaped this abuse but the flash memories will never go away .
It's like a photo taken with a timer but the smile was much wider as you waited for what seems like an eternal 10seconds , the photo that's taken must be mistaken as my smile is replaced with a frown .
I didn't care about the money I...
#anxiety
#depression
#loneliness
#insomnia
#PTSD
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Can't sleep
Can't sleep
Frowning , so tired but in these thoughts
Drowning In memories , I can't pass the middle of this hour glass but the sands of time past through me .
Can't sleep
Having feelings of guilt from the stupid stuff I did to myself and the selfishness sells like discounted clothes with only slight defects .
Reflects burning and image in me , LCD screen left on over night settings too bright leaving the lines .
Can't sleep
I'm wide awake , for fuck sakes I got to be up in three hours , taking a shower , iron my shirt to...
Frowning , so tired but in these thoughts
Drowning In memories , I can't pass the middle of this hour glass but the sands of time past through me .
Can't sleep
Having feelings of guilt from the stupid stuff I did to myself and the selfishness sells like discounted clothes with only slight defects .
Reflects burning and image in me , LCD screen left on over night settings too bright leaving the lines .
Can't sleep
I'm wide awake , for fuck sakes I got to be up in three hours , taking a shower , iron my shirt to...
#anxiety
#depression
#insomnia #sleep
#insomnia #sleep
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I Remember
I remember a time before sex , alcohol and responsibility .
I remember being a super hero flying thru the sky as I jumped on the trampoline.
I remember my biggest fear was only the bullies but the escape was going home.
I remember wanting to be a grown up .
Be careful what you wish for ,
I remember my first kiss
I remember the butterfly's in my stomach
I remember feeling like I had something to live for.
Now I remember my regrets , every mistake I made
I remember heartbreak , stress and financial ache
I...
I remember being a super hero flying thru the sky as I jumped on the trampoline.
I remember my biggest fear was only the bullies but the escape was going home.
I remember wanting to be a grown up .
Be careful what you wish for ,
I remember my first kiss
I remember the butterfly's in my stomach
I remember feeling like I had something to live for.
Now I remember my regrets , every mistake I made
I remember heartbreak , stress and financial ache
I...
#anxiety
#depression
#loneliness #SelfReflection
#loneliness #SelfReflection
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Goodbye to me
Spending time alone
Although I am never alone
A backlit screen illuminates my face
My shadow on the wall behind me
Reflecting every movement I make
A sign that I'm still here
Maybe it's the only sign left of my existence
Apart from the comments I've left on the wall
To put the screen away is to be truly alone
Worried about never being able to meet my soul mate , new friends or any form of human interaction
What am I missing ?
Am I alone ?
No motivation , no goals in life , feel like I'm a waste of oxygen .
...
Although I am never alone
A backlit screen illuminates my face
My shadow on the wall behind me
Reflecting every movement I make
A sign that I'm still here
Maybe it's the only sign left of my existence
Apart from the comments I've left on the wall
To put the screen away is to be truly alone
Worried about never being able to meet my soul mate , new friends or any form of human interaction
What am I missing ?
Am I alone ?
No motivation , no goals in life , feel like I'm a waste of oxygen .
...
#depression
#loneliness
#suicide #acceptance
#suicide #acceptance
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Don't Let Her Go
You may see the fire in her eyes , burning at you as you come home late from another night of drinking . She knows something isn’t right because you are killing your self slowly by filling your body with alcohol and narcotics. Never forget tho she is the one who will pull you out of the fire , Hold her close and don’t let her go , don’t be like me where i gave up on the one person I ever loved because i found myself caged and alone with a life prison sentence in my own mind . Hold her close and don’t let her go , she has dealt with your bull shit for years , your self centered life style but...
#love
#regret
#lust
#breakup
#PTSD
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Glad Your Dead
Right mother fucker man i’m glad your dead
Went out with a bang like a shot to the head
I guess it's fitting to your life's cause
Can't quick save start again or even try pause
You never read the terms and conditions properly did you ?
Signed up for this shit while time will now burn through !
No one ever gave a shit or tried to give damn
Expected you to fix everything someone hold my hand
Damn it , you didn't even plan it!
I bet you went out like the loser freak hermit !
That you are , fine wine and rich cigars
Wishing you could...
Went out with a bang like a shot to the head
I guess it's fitting to your life's cause
Can't quick save start again or even try pause
You never read the terms and conditions properly did you ?
Signed up for this shit while time will now burn through !
No one ever gave a shit or tried to give damn
Expected you to fix everything someone hold my hand
Damn it , you didn't even plan it!
I bet you went out like the loser freak hermit !
That you are , fine wine and rich cigars
Wishing you could...
#depression
#dark
#death #rap
#death #rap
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