Submissions by twistedemily (Emily LeBeaux)

I really don't know who I'm writing to.
So I'll just say - I'm writing to you.
I write 'cause I don't know what else to do.
I'm just lying here, so confused.

Have I been living my life wrong?
Did I sing the world the wrong song?
I'm starting to believe I don't belong,
Call me normal just to string me along.

I'll internalize for a moment here,
and then turn back on you with this fear.
I'll scream and hold back a tear
I'll shriek and pout with no one else near

Because someone has to hear the insanity
But who? Who should show me...

The worst part about having tasted heaven
Now everything is bitter in comparison
The worst part about having seen the light
Now I’m blind to the beauty in life
The worst part about having loved before
Now I’m not independent anymore
The worst part about setting off to roam,
Is risking never coming back home

One door closed
And another opened
I walked so far for something new
Kept walking through doors
Not knowing what to look for,
Now there’s no more to walk through

The worst part about giving into the temptation
Now I...

Close your eyes.
I’m hugging you,
From behind.
My arms, coiled around your waist.
My head rested
on it’s side
On the back of
Your shoulder.
You’re sitting down,
Cross-legged.
My legs are stretched out
Just past yours.
Like a Koala.
Stop breathing,
For a moment.
Feel my chest
Rising and falling
Against the wings of your back.
Wait another moment.
Feel my heart beat
Drumming right
Into your spine.
Open your eyes,
breathe again.
Smell the fresh spring air.
A mixture of unruly grass...

I hate you.
But it's lust, all the same.
You caught me, corrupted
and I tripped into the game.

I shouldn't have...
I shouldn't have asked for the cigarette.
I shouldn't have brought you home.
I shouldn't have left her behind, smirking.
I shouldn't have gone with you, alone.

I should have...
I should have stayed rigid.
I should have kept saying no.
I should have turned and ran.
I should have just let you go.

But it was everything I experienced
that led me so very astray
I mean, shit. "Tall, dark, and...