Submissions by sweetdevil (CortneyB)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
STORY POEM
Published
10th Dec 2017 5:16am
10th Dec 2017 5:16am
That Fateful Night
There was this one night...
I wanted to die,
I don't quite remember why.
I do remember what I did,
Well, what I took.
A couple doses of sleeping medicine,
A hanful of benadryl,
A few big swigs of coedine,
Previosly prescribed and never used.
Throw in a few shots of cherry liquor,
To wash the taste away,
And I was ready to sleep,
And praying not to wake again.
As I moved closer to my peace,
He came in from the other room,
He said he wanted to go to the hospital,
He'd been sick lately,
I thought he had gone to...
I wanted to die,
I don't quite remember why.
I do remember what I did,
Well, what I took.
A couple doses of sleeping medicine,
A hanful of benadryl,
A few big swigs of coedine,
Previosly prescribed and never used.
Throw in a few shots of cherry liquor,
To wash the taste away,
And I was ready to sleep,
And praying not to wake again.
As I moved closer to my peace,
He came in from the other room,
He said he wanted to go to the hospital,
He'd been sick lately,
I thought he had gone to...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
5th Dec 2017 00:36am
5th Dec 2017 00:36am
Mommy Dearest
You promised to be there,
To love me to the end
To support me no matter what,
Because that's what you do for family.
Now all I get is silence,
When I've made a choice you disagree with.
You claim someone else is keeping me from you,
But if anything its your silence that is pushing me away.
I can only reach out so many times,
Before the rejection hurts me enough to stop trying.
So, if one day I finally give up,
Don't blame anyone else,
Because it's your utter refusal to respond,
That is breaking my heart everyday.
To love me to the end
To support me no matter what,
Because that's what you do for family.
Now all I get is silence,
When I've made a choice you disagree with.
You claim someone else is keeping me from you,
But if anything its your silence that is pushing me away.
I can only reach out so many times,
Before the rejection hurts me enough to stop trying.
So, if one day I finally give up,
Don't blame anyone else,
Because it's your utter refusal to respond,
That is breaking my heart everyday.
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LOVE POEM
Published
29th Nov 2017 1:23pm
29th Nov 2017 1:23pm
the rambling of a sleep deprived young woman
I love you"
Three words thrown around
But what do they mean?
I thought they meant something
"I'll stand by you"
"I'll support you"
"We're a team"
"I never want to lose you"
But do they really?
Do they mean anything at all?
I've heard these three words,
Three stupid words
From many people
From family to friends to cruel human beings
Yet my mother never speaks to me anymore
My sisters ignore most my messages.
My friends send half responses,
And past 'relationships' leave me broken.
Even now with my...
Three words thrown around
But what do they mean?
I thought they meant something
"I'll stand by you"
"I'll support you"
"We're a team"
"I never want to lose you"
But do they really?
Do they mean anything at all?
I've heard these three words,
Three stupid words
From many people
From family to friends to cruel human beings
Yet my mother never speaks to me anymore
My sisters ignore most my messages.
My friends send half responses,
And past 'relationships' leave me broken.
Even now with my...
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SELF POEM
Published
17th Nov 2017 4:43am
17th Nov 2017 4:43am
Not-A-Happily-Ever-After....
A year ago, he stole my love
Not in the usual sense.
He took me from the one I loved most,
Then weakened my ability to love ever since.
He took from me what I never intended to give,
With a too strong drink, and my throat in his grip.
Each movement was followed by a plea,
"Stop, no, get off" words falling from my lips.
Once wasn't enough,
He kept me trapped for several sunsets,
Filled with his unwanted "love".
And my growing list of regrets.
I saw no way to escape his torture,
And each day I fought back less.
The pain...
Not in the usual sense.
He took me from the one I loved most,
Then weakened my ability to love ever since.
He took from me what I never intended to give,
With a too strong drink, and my throat in his grip.
Each movement was followed by a plea,
"Stop, no, get off" words falling from my lips.
Once wasn't enough,
He kept me trapped for several sunsets,
Filled with his unwanted "love".
And my growing list of regrets.
I saw no way to escape his torture,
And each day I fought back less.
The pain...
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SELF POEM
Published
29th Aug 2016 5:21am
29th Aug 2016 5:21am
NotYetTitledAsThisIsMyFirstAttemptAtWritingInAWhile
God help me,
I feel I may slip further into insanity.
Locked inside a darkened mind,
Not a hint of light found inside.
Not yet craving deaths release,
Simply desiring a moment's peace.
Yet dreams offer to reprieve,
So I spend my waking hours struggling to breathe.
Suffocating under the weight on my heart,
As I feel myself fall apart.
Yet I'll always try to smile,
and I'll even laugh once in a while.
I'll put on a facade,
A mask that I've made,
Making others believe everything okay.
So they feel safe walking away. ...
I feel I may slip further into insanity.
Locked inside a darkened mind,
Not a hint of light found inside.
Not yet craving deaths release,
Simply desiring a moment's peace.
Yet dreams offer to reprieve,
So I spend my waking hours struggling to breathe.
Suffocating under the weight on my heart,
As I feel myself fall apart.
Yet I'll always try to smile,
and I'll even laugh once in a while.
I'll put on a facade,
A mask that I've made,
Making others believe everything okay.
So they feel safe walking away. ...
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SONG LYRICS
Published
1st Jun 2015 00:11am
1st Jun 2015 00:11am
What Can You Do
What can you do,
When there's nothing left to lose,
When old loves fade away,
And there's nothing left to say
What can you do,
When the light in life starts to dim
When happiness runs far,
And you don't think it's coming back again.
I can't promise you the world,
Or that everything will be alright,
But there is one thing I can guarantee,
It's always worth the fight.
Oh oo--oh
What can you do,
When loneliness clouds you soul
When it seems like no one is there,
And the pain swallows you whole.
What...
When there's nothing left to lose,
When old loves fade away,
And there's nothing left to say
What can you do,
When the light in life starts to dim
When happiness runs far,
And you don't think it's coming back again.
I can't promise you the world,
Or that everything will be alright,
But there is one thing I can guarantee,
It's always worth the fight.
Oh oo--oh
What can you do,
When loneliness clouds you soul
When it seems like no one is there,
And the pain swallows you whole.
What...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
14th May 2015 3:52pm
14th May 2015 3:52pm
Dreams
Throughout your life,
Your dreams will change.
Time and time again,
You'll learn you want something different.
I've had many dreams.
Many things I aspired to do.
I wanted to be a teacher.
A singer or a dancer.
An actress or an artist.
I wanted to tell stories, with words, with pictures, with actions.
And while I would still love to do any of these things,
Right now I only have one dream...
I want to be able to hear the joy in my sisters voice,
As she calls me up on the phone,
Tears in her eyes,
Because she just got the...
Your dreams will change.
Time and time again,
You'll learn you want something different.
I've had many dreams.
Many things I aspired to do.
I wanted to be a teacher.
A singer or a dancer.
An actress or an artist.
I wanted to tell stories, with words, with pictures, with actions.
And while I would still love to do any of these things,
Right now I only have one dream...
I want to be able to hear the joy in my sisters voice,
As she calls me up on the phone,
Tears in her eyes,
Because she just got the...
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STORY POEM
Published
27th Jun 2014 1:26am
27th Jun 2014 1:26am
Awkward...
Hand sliding across my thighs
Lips slipping beside fingertips
Teeth, biting roughly
Into soft skin.
Hot breath
Wonderful against my skin.
I can feel the temptation
The desire to just give in.
Blood pumping, heart racing,
Heart beat turned into a loud knocking.
Wait...
That's not my heart.
The door?
Ignore that.
You're busy.
Skin slipping over skin,
When I hear knocking again.
They'll leave if I don't answer.
Assume I'm just not home.
His hands move up to my chest,
Attempting to unhook my bra.
I'm...
Lips slipping beside fingertips
Teeth, biting roughly
Into soft skin.
Hot breath
Wonderful against my skin.
I can feel the temptation
The desire to just give in.
Blood pumping, heart racing,
Heart beat turned into a loud knocking.
Wait...
That's not my heart.
The door?
Ignore that.
You're busy.
Skin slipping over skin,
When I hear knocking again.
They'll leave if I don't answer.
Assume I'm just not home.
His hands move up to my chest,
Attempting to unhook my bra.
I'm...
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DARK POEM
Published
27th May 2014 4:11am
27th May 2014 4:11am
Late-Night-Ramblings
What do you do when you're broken?
When you can feel your soul rotting from the inside?
How do you keep from making that last move?
From ending the misery imposed by your pathetic life?
These questions may seem harsh to some,
But others know all to well what I mean.
They've layed awake at night with a sugar sweet voice whispering in their ear,
Speaking of the unspeakable in a voice you can't help but hear.
They demand your attention.
They demand your emotions escape.
And once the flood doors finally burst,
And all your pain finally pours...
When you can feel your soul rotting from the inside?
How do you keep from making that last move?
From ending the misery imposed by your pathetic life?
These questions may seem harsh to some,
But others know all to well what I mean.
They've layed awake at night with a sugar sweet voice whispering in their ear,
Speaking of the unspeakable in a voice you can't help but hear.
They demand your attention.
They demand your emotions escape.
And once the flood doors finally burst,
And all your pain finally pours...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
19th Mar 2014 11:47pm
19th Mar 2014 11:47pm
Grandma Anne
She was always there for us,
If not physically, then in our hearts.
Who would give anything to keep us happy,
Even when our worlds were falling apart.
She showered us with love,
In gifts, food, and family fun.
She always was so loving,
Caring, for everyone.
But earlier today she left this world,
Went on to a better place.
She's up in heaven, with Gods angels,
And I hope she's looking down with a smile on her beautiful face.
She was, and always will have a place in my heart,
And I think all my family can say the same thing.
We...
If not physically, then in our hearts.
Who would give anything to keep us happy,
Even when our worlds were falling apart.
She showered us with love,
In gifts, food, and family fun.
She always was so loving,
Caring, for everyone.
But earlier today she left this world,
Went on to a better place.
She's up in heaven, with Gods angels,
And I hope she's looking down with a smile on her beautiful face.
She was, and always will have a place in my heart,
And I think all my family can say the same thing.
We...
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SELF POEM
Published
7th Mar 2014 1:36am
7th Mar 2014 1:36am
Why
Heart, why do you bleed,
When you're surrounded by joy?
Why turn dark, even on the brightest days?
Mind, why do you go blank,
When people ask me why I feel this way?
Why can't I explain this misery,
That I feel so completely.
Soul, why do you fall apart,
Breaking into so many pieces?
Why do you slowly disintegrate into nothingness,
When you have so much for which to stay whole.
And, I ask one last time,
Why, Cortney, can't you just be happy?
When you're surrounded by joy?
Why turn dark, even on the brightest days?
Mind, why do you go blank,
When people ask me why I feel this way?
Why can't I explain this misery,
That I feel so completely.
Soul, why do you fall apart,
Breaking into so many pieces?
Why do you slowly disintegrate into nothingness,
When you have so much for which to stay whole.
And, I ask one last time,
Why, Cortney, can't you just be happy?
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DARK POEM
Published
12th Feb 2014 9:51pm
12th Feb 2014 9:51pm
Broken
I lay on the dirty floor,
Unsure of how I ended up here.
I try to sit up, look around me,
But can't seem to move.
I stare past the prescription bottle in my hands,
Where there was once a large mirror on the wall.
But it must have been moved because it's not my reflection I see.
It's a woman, broken beyond repair.
Her hair shining almost white in the sunlight,
Trickling in through the blinds.
Her simple grey dress soaked with sweat,
As she realizes just what she has done.
I watch this woman start to cry,
And reach my hand...
Unsure of how I ended up here.
I try to sit up, look around me,
But can't seem to move.
I stare past the prescription bottle in my hands,
Where there was once a large mirror on the wall.
But it must have been moved because it's not my reflection I see.
It's a woman, broken beyond repair.
Her hair shining almost white in the sunlight,
Trickling in through the blinds.
Her simple grey dress soaked with sweat,
As she realizes just what she has done.
I watch this woman start to cry,
And reach my hand...
785 reads
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